Don't feel bad, I know it is easy to be angry with yourself as I also messed up and angry and disappointed w/myself, as you might know if you read any of my other posts I had 33 days sobriety and drank and also smoked a little pot, Sunday, Monday I drank, then didnt drink Tuesday, then drank again on Wednesday and Thursday, so starting over today. My triggers were being around people who were drinking, my neighbor and the presence and suggestion of alcohol and part of me doesnt get it - Why can't I not drink, why can't I be normal- I guess that is why they call it a disease. I guess the first day I drank set it off so to speak-although I drank much less on those days then I used to, I still drank, I think once I drank the first time set off this stupid thinking of well it was only a few, but deep down I know I have to quit.:uzi2: