(((Chrissy))) Sending you plenty of HUGS and caring! It's good you can share your thoughts here. There are plenty of wonderful people who will listen and care and understand. It's just plain AWFUL to see a loved one destroy themselves with liquor. It hurts, yet there is the possibility of making changes for YOU that will be good for him, too. Do "what it takes" to take good care of you - day by day, moment by moment. (((HUGS)))