The main thing right now is that you don't let those excuses that you listed to make you drink or use. Use those excuses to stay clean one more day. I am that way also, when I am in pain, I really don't like people around. It is like I want to get through it on my own. Lately I have let a few people in on what has been going on with me, but I am just scared to face some health issues and I don't want people to feel sorry for me, so I don't talk about it. Heck my kids don't even really know what is going on with me neither does SR. The thing is just take care of yourself and the rest will work out. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.
Love Vic
Oh BTW it is ok for me to cry....