Hey Jane,
You're a lot smarter person than I. Yes, you fell off the wagon, but you're back hear posting the next day, working through it and getting into the sober mindset again. Me, on the other hand, I went on a three month bender--really smart. I admire you for that. Please don't beat yourself up, as you won't change the past, just ruin the near-future.
Take care of yourself.