Jane,
I am sorry you are feeling so low today, but, BOY! do I remember how that is!! You brought me right back to the reality of my disease and I THANK YOU!!
I cant tell you how many days and nights were consumed by that exact same cycle: feeling blythe and happy, which is as good a reason as any for a "glass" of wine, then off to the spirit shop to buy 2 (not 1) bottles of very good wine, as a reward for being happy I suppose...
Then, drink 1 glass and another and another, until the big question is: Do i open the second bottle or not?
About half of the time it was a yes. If not though, I would, in the morning filled with hangover remorse and self loathing, dump it down the drain, because at that point, it dawns on me that I cannot keep alcohol in the house safely.
This was my life for the last 3 years.
Today is a brand new day for you. You can learn alot from your experience last night, move on into sobriety again, and know that we support you 100% in times like now to keep on keepin on!