What a crazy weather day it's been today. It was gloomy, with a touch of warm now and then, then it poured, went back to gloomy, poured again, repeat, then the sun came out DURING the pouring rain. No wonder my head hurts today.
I'm feeling grumpy, but I went to a meeting anyway. There were several shares by people with lots of sobriety years telling how important it is to stick with AA and using the steps each day rather than falling into a complacent attitude. I'm frustrated because I want to be lazy. I want to just not drink. I guess as an alcoholic I don't have that option. Regardless of which recovery program I use, I still have to be vigilent my whole life or I'll give in to the desire to be "normal" which I just can't be. Anyone else feel this way?