I love that show, i record it every week so i don't miss anything. And like you DHF i would sit there drunk watching this show, feeling sorry for myself because "nobody cares that much about me" and sometimes crying. The downside for me though is i never knew anything about some of the drugs these people are using......and i find myself thinking "hmmm.......i could see myself smoking crack or meth". Or i crave alcohol when i watch these people drinking their beers or JD and i kinda want to be out of control to see if anyone really does care about me. But then there are times when i watch the people stoned out of their minds and their hitting their nose off the mirror and i think "why would they want to be that wasted".