That just it Doorknob. I know its stupid. No one is making me feel bad at all. I just feel like I don't fit in. Not the drinking part. I know that I'm a drunk. I think I feel like I don't fit in because I haven't gotten what you all have gotten yet. So, I surf along here every once in a while and post. Then I go away, cause I'm worried about you all getting tired of ole OnceNice and her pity pot party. Heck everyone. I'm getting tired of it too. Could I be approaching the sick and tired part. God I hope so.
I scared to quit drinking because of the thoughts. Its not fun anymore. I don't drink with others. I drink by myself in my house. Its not fun. Why is it so hard to give up. I don't want to drink like this anymore. ITS NOT FUN. SO WHY DO I DO IT. MAKES NO DARN SENSE.