my alcoholism was very advanced as i know some of yours was--iwas about to lose my third child --first two to my ex-hubbie--state ready to take the third--they dont like alchy moms who puke and pass out all day--well i couldnt lose another--so went to rehab--got out --did reapse some--downhill fast--losing contrl of my bowels --laying in it in bed and not even knowing--waking up in my own vomit all over me--the worst withdrawls on the planet----truly horryfying--vominting blood--cops, ambulances--family--aunt uncles mom refuse to talk to me to this day--parnanoia--so sick go to er and them looking at me with so much dicust--icould go on and on--glad im sober today--lol--
laura