Hey there and welcome to SR ....I live in a small town in Missouri too......My hubby was doing that the other day and I was like you..thinking LEAVE ME BE ....
I am glad you are here and great job on 4 days.....your temper will mellow out.....I am at 2 1/2 months clean from pain meds and other drugs and I am getting to a better place mentally and can control my temper better.
It really does get easier ....take care and hang in there !!!!
We are here for you !!!!!
~Beezy