Lollipop, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I can't even imagine the pain you are going through and I would never judge you for slipping and drinking during such a difficult time, as I am sure that most people here would not. It takes a long time to build up a foundation of sobriety, and even then many people can relapse after YEARS of sobriety. I'm just so glad that you are still here with us at SR. I often wonder how I am going to get through painful times in the future. Shoot, you all saw how much I fretted just about going on vacation and that is supposed to be a happy time. I know we shouldn't worry about the grace that we might need for tomorrow, but it's difficult, especially for us newbies.
Prayers and hugs to you.
