Oh gosh where should i start..My bf been addicted to xanax for 8 months...He got addicted from his doctor if i could be alone for a few mins with that doc i would show her the hell that ive and my bf been going through since then...theres sooo many different meds that docs can prescibe i dont know why they ever choose to give their patients benzo's...i really think you should go into a rehab or detox...cause withdrawl from benzo's can be real dangerous...my bf and many others get seizures from stopping cold from them...so you shouldnt be left alone withdrawing from them...i wish you luck and i know its hardest thing to come to terms that u r an addict..even though ive been in many rehabs and detoxs and been clean for 11months...i still have a real hard time excepting that something so small like heroin has complete control over me and cause me to lose control..because human nature is to keep fighting...but this fight u only win when u surrender..