Thanks for the responses.
I'm going to stay away from a few places and work on not picking up. I always have that guilty feeling and it feels lousy. I don't want people hating me and such and I worry about that. I know moving on is important. First night going to the vfw at night like that.
My trigger is I think knowing that I can pick up a drink. I don't have a real rreason to do so either. I don't have a social life, I live a pretty isolated life and I think this might be an issue which would make things worse for me. I have my own set of issues, alot on my mind, and am on meds and I know I shouldn't be drinking at all.
I am disallowed from another place/bar which is a good thing, maybe it's for the better.