((LNF))
Remember that feelings are neither good or bad, right or wrong, normal or abnormal - they are what they are - your feelings - if you don't feel anything right now - it's ok -
maybe it's a way of protecting so that you can do what you need to do - I don't know - meditate, pray, seeking guidance from your HP, follow what you know is healthy for You, right now - possibly try not to get caught up in the "what if's"; "what if he does change, what if he does quit" - making decision on the here and now is what seems to be the healthy decisions for most of us -
You have the love and support of your HP and SR - if the numbness wears off and you start feeling overwhelming emotions - reach out then - we'll be here.
Just for Today,
Rita