thank you everyone for the good advice and kind words.
i know i need to work on not letting his comments bother me so much. it's just hard sometimes, especially when he says things in front of other people. i don't know if his comments have anything to do with his alcoholism or his self esteem, like i said he has a very sarcastic sense of humor, his whole family does, however he is the only one to make jokes about my weight.
historyteach- that article about senstive people explains so much about me! i have never really know how to explain it to people about how i need quiet "alone" time to recover from my day or a stressful situtation. even the thing about sounds- driving in town really irrates me sometimes because of the loud trucks and traffic sounds.
BSP- sounds like a difficult math problem!
anyhow today is a new day, and i am feeling a bit better. at least not crying when i think about being "fat and lazy".