Thanks Cat. He is passed out sleeping now. I should be glad I am leaving to go to big island. was supposed to leave today but was so hungover yesterday and my bday is tomorrow. Instead of totally getting upset with myself. I am just happy that it all 'clicked' and now I can spend a quiet bday tomorrow and rest and relax and head out on Friday!
yes, I realized as I was talking to the x and saying 'you should have done this'. I stopped and said I need to stop saying what you should do, you do what you want anyways....I need to truly focus on me.
I went to see my family in Oct. and when I got back gave him the cold shoulder but he managed to start staying at my place again. Probably because of the weed. He has it and I don't and I have had an addiction to that and then here we are in Dec. back doing the dance again. He disappeared for 4 days last week and I realized he isn't going to stop doing that and I can't go on with it anymore and talking doesn't work!