Welcome to the SR family!
Thank you for taking the time to introduce yourself.
I see that you joined the forum about 9 months ago. Are you familiar with the sticky posts at the top of this page? You can find lots of wisdom and hope there by reading about some of our experiences.
Please continue to reach out for support during this difficult time. Ending a relationship is similar to grieving the loss of a loved one.
I experienced anger, depressions, denial, bargaining, and finally acceptance when I ended my marriage to an active alcoholic. The emotions come in waves and no particular order, sometimes it feels like they come all at once. A friend advised me to be sure I reach out for help if I find myself stuck in one of the phases. That was sound advice.