Mistakes2

Hi everyone,
Been a while since I posted. Went on a binge this weekend with some "friends" and made a fool of myself. I have my first day at a new job today, and I am hungover and depressed.
I thought I was doing fine and that I could handle it... but I thought wrong like every other time I have drank.
Not sure if I should try to call in my new job and tell them I will be able to start tomorrow instead (what a bad first impression that will be)
Also, my ex came over when I was drunk because I begged them to come by and when they seen I had relapsed they broke up with me for good. I feel such self hate and am so embarrassed that they had to witness me in that state again... my family too when they came home. The people at the local bars too! Makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it.
Got to be up in 2 hours 36 minutes to be exact to go to this new job and I slept maybe 2 hours all day and night. Not sure what to do.
Too embarrassed to show my face in any AA meetings... came back to this website and have been reading other peoples stories... *sigh*

Dee74

I;'m sorry for the circumstances but welcome back Mistakes.

I would, if at all possible, try and get to the job - unless you're really ill of \
course .

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Mistakes2

Hi Dee,
I am not sure if I can do it but I will try to force myself.
Thank you

Opivotal

You can get past all this, Mistakes.

Perhaps this will be your turning point.

Keep posting. We're here for you!

Mistakes2

Hi thank you. I forced myself to go to the job today and I am glad I did. Feel nuch better now... had a warm meal and bath and now I am going to try to get that nights sleep.
Thank you for your kind words.

Opivotal

Good for you, Mistakes! I was hoping you went to work today.

Best to keep your mind busy.

Please try not to beat yourself up too much.

Work on your sobriety and moving forward.

Sleep well.

Maudcat

Hi, glad you went to the job.
Always good to be employed.
Get some rest. Sleep helps.
Think about why you drank. It’s said here that we plan to drink before we do.
Try again. Next time will be the winner, but you have to want to quit, yeah.

AtomicBlue

Mistakes, thank you for posting candidly your feelings and about not looking forward to work. It was a good reminder to me how I used to dread going in to work frequently and having to drag myself there. I’m glad you went.

Life is much simpler sober. I can’t believe what I used to put myself through so I could continue drinking. Wake up, cold shower, eye drops, jump up and down to get the blood flowing, drinking liquids etc. to get myself ready to go to work. Totally not worth it.

Midwest1981

Great job pushing through and making it to the new job. I hope you get back on track!