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bringmeback7693 05-25-2018 10:13 AM

What did alcohol take from you?
 
For me, alcohol took away my sense of self. Before alcohol I had passions and interests that I could have explored more, but alcohol made me forget about all of them.

I loved writing and art and theatre, but was always too hungover in college to pursue any of these activities. I stopped caring about them. Pretty soon my only hobby was drinking.

Alcohol also made my anxiety, depression, and social anxiety infinitely worse. It destroyed my confidence and self-worth.

What did alcohol take from you? How can you get it back?

least 05-25-2018 10:43 AM

Drinking took away my sanity and peace of mind. Sobriety and gratitude got them back. :)

Bailey3 05-25-2018 05:55 PM

Everything important. I had an alcoholic father so, parts of my childhood were taken. I in turn became an alcoholic and, that took most of the rest.

I’m hoping to find long term sobriety and, get it back.

least 05-25-2018 07:15 PM

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Iím hoping to find long term sobriety
If you can't find it, create it. :)

Dee74 05-25-2018 07:38 PM

Addiction took away the real me and left a corrupted copy in its place.

D

Bullwinkle1944 05-25-2018 07:42 PM

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bringmeback7693 writes >>>For me, alcohol took away my sense of self. Before alcohol I had passions and interests that I could have explored more, but alcohol made me forget about all of them.

I loved writing and art and theatre, but was always too hungover in college to pursue any of these activities. I stopped caring about them. Pretty soon my only hobby was drinking.

Alcohol also made my anxiety, depression, and social anxiety infinitely worse. It destroyed my confidence and self-worth.

What did alcohol take from you? How can you get it back?<<<

Alcoholic drinking, the drug alcohol temporally relieved my depression, depression I didn’t know I was suffering. If the effect from alcohol weren’t temporary, I wouldn’t have become addicted.

Before my first drink, I blocked my depression and feelings involved with my depression via hyper- activities, mostly sports. Since hyper-activities was a frame of reference, it’s easy in retrospect to see why alcohol went beyond what hyper-activities, in what it did for me. Depending on my mood and circumstances, I had good and bad times, but the good times became increasingly fewer, this is due to tolerance. One aspect of my problems at this point was I was attempting to recapture my original almost euphoric experiences at the beginning of my drinking. Eventually alcohol stopped working for me and that’s when I began to question whether I was an alcoholic.

Alcoholic drinking contributed to my divorce. On the other hand, Alcoholic drinking opened my eyes in realizing I had married a stranger, because I didn’t know who I was, so my choices in relationships were immature.

I view alcoholism as the cure for that of which it purports to be the disease. The symptom alcoholism, has a purpose, and that’s recovery from my emotional and mental problems.

Also for me, alcoholism is a delivery system into spiritual reality, which is the only reality.

coming_clean 05-26-2018 03:23 PM

Alcohol have been a gateway drug that lead to drugs.
Drugs blurred the connection with myself, the universe.
It isolated me. It depressed me.
It made me scared shitless.

I got Some sense of normaliter back by practising buddhism and going to meetings.

Gettingcloser 05-26-2018 03:59 PM

Alcohol took time away from me. 18 years of habitual drinking, very heavy the last 5. I could have done so much with that time. I am 43 now and newly sober pledging to get the time back.

snitch 05-26-2018 04:05 PM

Alcohol robbed me of my morals. In sobriety I am finding my morals are actually quite high. In active addiction I had none.

Quake84 05-29-2018 07:47 AM

Alcoholism has taken away any self confidence I once had. Which was never much in the first place. I cant think of anything I like about myself anymore. It has damaged friendships because of the terrible ways Iíve acted in front of/toward people. Sometimes Iím just too embarrassed to ever contact someone again. It has damaged my brain. I feel like I am missing a connection to my past. Like I donít remember how things made me feel. Everything, even things before my drinking began, feels like a blur. And now, trying to recollect on my past feels impossible. Not to mention the amount of blackouts Iím dealing with now. My entire life feels like it didnít happen. And thatís sad and scary.

Yixi 05-29-2018 08:59 AM

All of me. It took all of me.

Opivotal 05-29-2018 10:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Quake84 (Post 6910557)
Alcoholism has taken away any self confidence I once had. Which was never much in the first place. I cant think of anything I like about myself anymore. It has damaged friendships because of the terrible ways Iíve acted in front of/toward people. Sometimes Iím just too embarrassed to ever contact someone again. It has damaged my brain. I feel like I am missing a connection to my past. Like I donít remember how things made me feel. Everything, even things before my drinking began, feels like a blur. And now, trying to recollect on my past feels impossible. Not to mention the amount of blackouts Iím dealing with now. My entire life feels like it didnít happen. And thatís sad and scary.

You can turn your life around, Quake. I felt 100 percent better about myself once I got sober. Alcohol robbed me of my very soul. I was an alcoholic shell of my former self. The blackouts were a turning point for me.

I know it's scary, but you can do this!

Sweetpeacan 05-31-2018 10:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Yixi (Post 6910626)
All of me. It took all of me.

How true this is Yixi and then some for me.

I have gone from being a relatively nice kind person. To the extremely selfish drunk that I become.

Not today though & I'll take that, SP x

Sunflowerlife 05-31-2018 01:49 PM

Alcohol took away my self worth, my dignity, my sanity at times, my ability to make good choices, my morals, my integrity, my regard for others, my regard for myself, my inner peace, my connection with the Divine, my love for myself and others and much, much more.

Boojeanie 07-28-2018 07:04 PM

My integrity ... it turned me into my greatest enemy!

kamm 09-10-2018 11:39 AM

It took me. I gave myself to booze and forgot everything else. I hated myself and couldnít stop. I lied, cheated, hid and died a little on the inside. The days are so hard but I know this is worth it.

dsmaxis10 09-21-2018 10:52 AM

It took the greatest beautifulest thing i have ever seen my soul mate owe it's a scar a wound that just won't heal she's alive well married two kids owe you know it's your soul msate when they take your breath away

Willdoit 09-23-2018 11:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Bullwinkle1944 (Post 6907483)
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bringmeback7693 writes >>>For me, alcohol took away my sense of self. Before alcohol I had passions and interests that I could have explored more, but alcohol made me forget about all of them.

I loved writing and art and theatre, but was always too hungover in college to pursue any of these activities. I stopped caring about them. Pretty soon my only hobby was drinking.

Alcohol also made my anxiety, depression, and social anxiety infinitely worse. It destroyed my confidence and self-worth.

What did alcohol take from you? How can you get it back?<<<

Alcoholic drinking, the drug alcohol temporally relieved my depression, depression I didnít know I was suffering. If the effect from alcohol werenít temporary, I wouldnít have become addicted.

Before my first drink, I blocked my depression and feelings involved with my depression via hyper- activities, mostly sports. Since hyper-activities was a frame of reference, itís easy in retrospect to see why alcohol went beyond what hyper-activities, in what it did for me. Depending on my mood and circumstances, I had good and bad times, but the good times became increasingly fewer, this is due to tolerance. One aspect of my problems at this point was I was attempting to recapture my original almost euphoric experiences at the beginning of my drinking. Eventually alcohol stopped working for me and thatís when I began to question whether I was an alcoholic.

Alcoholic drinking contributed to my divorce. On the other hand, Alcoholic drinking opened my eyes in realizing I had married a stranger, because I didnít know who I was, so my choices in relationships were immature.

I view alcoholism as the cure for that of which it purports to be the disease. The symptom alcoholism, has a purpose, and thatís recovery from my emotional and mental problems.

Also for me, alcoholism is a delivery system into spiritual reality, which is the only reality.

That could be me , amazing and thanks .

Lorie1482 10-30-2018 01:56 PM

Iím so angry at myself 😡..... because I used alcohol to make me a different person a more social and accepted person by society..... I know I canít turn the clock back but if I would of just accepted myself and been stronger and said no with conviction, maybe things would of turned out different for me. Now Iím really seeing me as the person I really am... and to tell the truth I like who I am now. However, Iím now learning how to be just me with out alcohol and live a healthier sober and better life... Best wishes everyone 🤗

Mummyto2 10-30-2018 02:14 PM

It took away the real me, but I wonít stop until she is back


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