| needingafriend | 10-12-2015 03:54 PM |
9 months and still going strong:)
January 4,2015 I decided to come off of any drugs I was very addicted to. I was in the drug loop for 4 years but the last 2 years were hell. I was using money I didn't have, stealing, lying, and using people to get what I wanted. I put my family and daughter to the back burner of my life just for a fun time. I was a good parent but I wasn't were I needed to be to be the beat I could have been. So I sobered up, dealt with some really bad withdrawals, and went MIA for a while. I went a whole month being clean til I found out my husband and I were expecting a new baby in October (17 days from now may I add). The moment I heard I was pregnant it made all the more reason to be healthy. Not only for me but my unborn baby and daughter. I am so proud of the woman, mother, and wife I have become. I have gained more respect for myself, pride, and love for myself that I had been missing.. Granted I have times here and there when I think of all the times I've had while using. But looking into my future helps me to know that it wouldn't be worth taking steps back. I have yet to go to meetings but my husband has been one of my biggest supporters and helps me during my lows. Now its just waiting for a new arrival for our little family and finishing out school. For anyone who is struggling, just know you are worth it and nothing is impossible no matter how far you think you are gone. Your higher power of your choosing will help you stand back up and go back on the right path. Patience, determination, and knowledge will be your biggest friends. God bless you all. | 