Redmayne

Somewhere in the book, 'Alcoholics Anonymous' there's a reference to the 'aching loneliness, that lies so deep in the heart of many alcoholics'...

Yep, I know that feeling, took it with me to A A, and came away with it, 30 years later...some things don't change.

Brought it with me to SRC, where it steadfastly remains ...no communication, no friends, nothing...

Good job I was born a 'real alcoholic, which meant I also have the disease/illness of alcoholism, accounting for all the fear, guilt, insecurities, together with the feelings that I 'don't fit in' or 'I'm just not good enough' all my life.

Otherwise I'd start thinking that my sense of isolation and loneliness, both on here and A A, was my fault...may be it is ?

Dee74

Hey redmayne -

just a suggestion, but if you branched out and posted a little in other forums, you'd definitely get more communication interaction and feedback - you might even make a cyber friend or two

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matt4x4

Well sorry to hear you are still lonely. When I am not working any program, I revert back to my old ways and take my will back which leads me to be lonely. I would consider myself a loner, but I know this is an issue for me and I deal with it accordingly by attending meetings on a regular basis as well as doing activities outside of AA, such as meetups.com and some other sites.

Redmayne

Thanks for your constructive reply...I'd qualify my original post by saying that, whilst I don't like being lonely, I do enjoy my solitude...as much as I enjoy the gift of me sobriety, and all it brings.

If no more than in the self reliance on myself rather than others, particularly alcohol...

matt4x4

Ah yeah, there is a difference for sure. Solitude and loneliness.

AAnoob

for me, I don't find forums a good place for making connections.

go to meetings and be around real live people.

as an introvert, smaller meetings are better for me...

AAnoob

and as a depression suffer, isolation is bad news...

Ruturn

I know that feeling, that aching hole deep inside me that there was never enough vodka in the world to fill up. I find that by doing the things I need to be doing anyway, I am slowly filling that hole with pride and self-worth. I ask God to give me guidance every day and then I take the actions I need to and that hole isn't as large as it used to be. I finally believe that I CAN do this. I never really believed any of it would get better before, and was on that cycle of relapse that I just couldn't shake. I don't ever want to have that emptiness inside of me again, and I know that if I drink I will go right back to that.

EBD

I am where many others are, just starting my new life free of an addiction. Mine is gambling.

I like your comments.