lightfollower

Today I'm quitting not because I've ruined my life, hurt people or even myself. I'm quitting because I see 2 ways my life can go and it's time to choose the road I want to travel. Do I want to be a person repeating the same cycles over and over never moving above and beyond where I am now? No. I want to choose the path that will lead me to the world I've always dreamed of. I want to travel, do things with family, meet new people and have new experiences. In order to do this I have to work for it. I have a career that will take me to my dreams but I have to work hard not just do the bare minimum to get by financially. When I'm sober I work alot and I get things accomplished that I should have done years ago. When I'm not sober I will think of all the things I should be doing and dream of the world I want but never do a thing to get it. When I'm sober and I accomplish something I always think "That was easy! Why didn't I do that years ago?". It's because the alcohol and marijuana have me thinking I can't do it so I may as well not try. Well, I've been thinking about this for weeks now and summer is coming up. There are trips I want to take this summer and I need a clear mind to plan them out. I'm walking around with a cloudy mind that isn't really functioning like it should right now. I need to clear it and cleanse myself from all the toxins I've been putting in my body. I'm excited and ready. This is way overdue.

justme2013

Light,,

I can totally relate. I've been skating by at work, successfully so, but still not doing my best. And the cloudy mind... I know EXACTLY what you mean. Day 2 for me, so far so good, but not yet in uncharted territory. Stay strong and reach out if you need anything! All the best

k1rk

Keep strong and keep honest with yourself!! You can accomplish anything with your strong will!! Best of wishes K1rk