I am so thrilled about finding this website, and trust me, it was on accident while searching for other things! I have been sober for over 6 years and just turned 26, so for that I find hope and thank God for his mercy.
My sister died suddenly back in February of last year and ever since then I have picked up some behaviors that terrify me. I also started seeing a therapist in addition to sponsoring and being sponsored only to find out what I already knew, I'm an adult child of alcohol. Like letting go of the drink wasn't hard enough, I'm back to attempting whole hearted the steps of alanon. Feelings are not something I enjoy very much, and especially talking about myself and my childhood living. I was also just diagnosed with ocd. And of course, "I should be so much better than this at 6 years sober". All of this happened at the death of my sister. I've also felt drawn back from God but am maintaining the maintenance of it so to speak. Anyone have any experience?