Notices

last time

Old 10-01-2021, 09:36 AM
  # 1 (permalink)  
Member
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: fort wayne, IN.
Posts: 1,085
last time

It was October 14, 2012 . I had been drinking every day for the past 3 and half years on what was my third relapse in 4 years. My body was beaten down from drowning it in whiskey every 12 hours. I was sitting at my desk in my dining room in my bathrobe staring at the computer screen. My hands shook fiercely as I typed something like, " I have not had a drink in 15 minutes.".and hit enter. To my surprise, a list of links appeared on my screen. There I saw a quote from someone who had typed the same sentence on a forum from a place called soberrecovery.com. I followed the link and found my salvation. For the next 2 weeks , I would stay in my bathrobe reading the posts from so many other people going through what I was going through. I stopped drinking. I was doing the impossible. I found comfort, support and most important, sobriety from the safety of my home. I use the word " safety" because I couldn't drive myself to an AA meeting or a counselor without stopping to buy a bottle. I stayed in my home and in my old bathrobe and opened myself up to an invisible community that offered healing to those who found themselves on their doorstep. I am very grateful to be able to say that I have not had a drink since that day. My anniversary is October 14. I do not have the words to describe how thankful I am. My life did not become a fairy tale. I had to learn to stop being a victim. I still struggle with " victimhood" and co - dependency. Those toxic states of being are addictive in themselves. I do not suffer from physical addictions anymore. Thank you Soberrecovery. I still remember the names of the people I met at this place. One of them is a facebook friend now! I am grateful for all of you.
escapist is offline  
Old 10-01-2021, 01:42 PM
  # 2 (permalink)  
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,043
Congratulations on 9years escapist

D
Dee74 is offline  
Old 10-01-2021, 03:01 PM
  # 3 (permalink)  
Member
 
VikingGF's Avatar
 
Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: New England
Posts: 4,388
Wonderful post. Congrats on 9 years!
VikingGF is offline  
Old 10-01-2021, 03:49 PM
  # 4 (permalink)  
Member
 
dustyfox's Avatar
 
Join Date: May 2021
Location: England
Posts: 1,845
Escapist I feel much the same way about this forum, it is by stumbling across it when I was feeling pretty desperate that I now have sobriety and the best chance of succeeding, because of the support and fellowship here. Thank you for your post it was heartfelt. Congratulations on your 9 years! Amazing.
dustyfox is offline  
Old 10-06-2021, 05:57 PM
  # 5 (permalink)  
Member
 
Free2bme888's Avatar
 
Join Date: May 2018
Location: Where I’ve longed to be all my life…..here, now.
Posts: 7,304
Thank for the raw honesty of your post, both in gratitude and your addiction.

Congratulations !
Free2bme888 is offline  
Old 10-06-2021, 06:09 PM
  # 6 (permalink)  
Community Greeter
 
Hevyn's Avatar
 
Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,415
I love this post! Congrats on your 9 yrs. I had a similar experience when I found SR. Not sure where I'd be without the non-judgmental understanding & compassion I've received here. Wonderful to hear from you, Escapist.
Hevyn is online now  

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 12:56 PM.