Goodbye.
Goodbye.
I can't come on SR anymore. It is killing me to post this.
It finally came out that my husband didn't try very hard to help me come up with money to go to New York because he hates that I come on here. He feels I spend more time on recovery and SR than I do with my family. He just walked out calling me a selfish b*tch.
I will miss you all, and I love you all.
Thanks for being here for me.
Laurie.
It finally came out that my husband didn't try very hard to help me come up with money to go to New York because he hates that I come on here. He feels I spend more time on recovery and SR than I do with my family. He just walked out calling me a selfish b*tch.
I will miss you all, and I love you all.
Thanks for being here for me.
Laurie.
All in God's Hands
Join Date: Jun 2005
Location: Texas
Posts: 81
namommy
I am so sorry for what is going on. Please don't leave because of him. what I really wish to say is not nice so I will not post it for fear of upsetting you, just know that i and probably everyone else are here for you.
Heather
I am so sorry for what is going on. Please don't leave because of him. what I really wish to say is not nice so I will not post it for fear of upsetting you, just know that i and probably everyone else are here for you.
Heather
Not all better, getting better
Join Date: Feb 2002
Location: The Beautiful Inner Banks of NC
Posts: 1,702
I hope you don't go. I know your posts have greatly helped a lot of people and I think probably have helped you too. Perhaps maybe you just need to limit your time here a bit instead of dropping it completely. I can understand how a spouse could feel somewhat "in competation" with recovery as it is such an all emcompassing thing. There are only so many hours in a day to spread around. I hope your husband can understand that if you "lose" your recovery he will lose you too. Maybe you just need to strive for more "ballance" in your life, though that can be a truly difficult goal sometimes. I wish you the best and hope you will stick around.
Namommy, I am so sorry that things didn't work out for you. I know how hard it is to feel like your needs are always being put behind everyone else's.
I hope you will stay, you have so much to offer.
Love, Anna
I hope you will stay, you have so much to offer.
Love, Anna
namommy, don't go. He's the one being selfish. Your recovery and how you do it is not for him to dictate to you, you know this. If necessary give it some time, but please don't say good-bye. *hugs*
IMO
when he's calm sit down with him and talk it over. You're on here helping your self and others. Isn't this better then being in a bar or running down dope?
There can be a happy medium reached.
LOL
This is my only hobby next to sailing and base ball and lyin around in my pool well then there's the comedy clubs and of course I like to rent movies.
Q. how many hours are you on here? Is housework etc. being neglected? Are you eating supper in front of your monitor?
PS
wait till he's not home and sneak in
when he's calm sit down with him and talk it over. You're on here helping your self and others. Isn't this better then being in a bar or running down dope?
There can be a happy medium reached.
LOL
This is my only hobby next to sailing and base ball and lyin around in my pool well then there's the comedy clubs and of course I like to rent movies.
Q. how many hours are you on here? Is housework etc. being neglected? Are you eating supper in front of your monitor?
PS
wait till he's not home and sneak in
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Join Date: Jun 2005
Location: Detroit MI
Posts: 51
Um your husband sounds like a jerk. Well he's being jerk. If this site is helping you then tell him to take flying f*** off a bridge sideways. He shouldn't have controll over what you do. I think you should stay.
Originally Posted by Chy
namommy, don't go. He's the one being selfish. Your recovery and how you do it is not for him to dictate to you, you know this. If necessary give it some time, but please don't say good-bye. *hugs*
namommy, Your recovery comes first. If it wasn't for you going to meetings and comming here to SR where would you be? Back out there getting high or worse. Don't leave we need you and your ESH.
i hope I don't upset you more by saying this. My ex manipulated me a lot with guilt and so on and so forth to control me. This ounds so much like manipulation to control you. I really hope you stay. I am so sorry I know how bad you can feel when someone makes you feel guilty because you start gaining control over your own life. Please stay there are so many worse things you could do to hurt your family than come to SR.
Let go and let God
Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: illinois
Posts: 116
Namommy,
I know how you feel. Our spouses are threatened by our sobriety. It is the devil trying to get you back into the old behaviors. Dont let him win.
You need to do what you need to do and let God take care of the rest.
Stay. It is your choice.
Jeff
I know how you feel. Our spouses are threatened by our sobriety. It is the devil trying to get you back into the old behaviors. Dont let him win.
You need to do what you need to do and let God take care of the rest.
Stay. It is your choice.
Jeff
Hey there, please don't go, if you won't stay for yourself, please stay for those who really need you here, and there are ALOT of people who do...
My husband does the same thing to me. He even does that with meetings, if it interfere's with his time after work, and it always does, so sometimes when I have gone, I feel very guilty when I leave, but it goes away after I'm gone, but I ALWAYS have to come immediately home, or leave early. When the others always go out for coffee or whatever to chat at a local restaurant, not me. But that's ok, I can give that, sometimes it makes me a bit angry though. I know, I fear being on the computer when he walks in after work, then it's like I'm afraid he's looking around tio make sure I did enough during the day. Lately I have been here alot.... But I need to be, so heck with him...
Please don't go. Don't let him do this. Will he calm down and change his thinking?? Is he in recovery? I guess not huh, or he'd understand more.
I hope and pray you come back. Love, Becky
My husband does the same thing to me. He even does that with meetings, if it interfere's with his time after work, and it always does, so sometimes when I have gone, I feel very guilty when I leave, but it goes away after I'm gone, but I ALWAYS have to come immediately home, or leave early. When the others always go out for coffee or whatever to chat at a local restaurant, not me. But that's ok, I can give that, sometimes it makes me a bit angry though. I know, I fear being on the computer when he walks in after work, then it's like I'm afraid he's looking around tio make sure I did enough during the day. Lately I have been here alot.... But I need to be, so heck with him...
Please don't go. Don't let him do this. Will he calm down and change his thinking?? Is he in recovery? I guess not huh, or he'd understand more.
I hope and pray you come back. Love, Becky
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Laurie.
You know what the first thing that came to my mind was..?
He resents the time and enthusiasm you set aside for SR.
Do you know what teh 2nd thought was....
counter manipulation on your part. "I"ll show him! I'll just quit coming to SR entirely.
I've heard "that damn computer" more times than I want to remember..... until I practiced the deliberate action of turning toward her and asking "what is it that you want?"
I guess getting caught up in the moment I hadn't relilzed how many times I had automatically replied "just a second..."
Yes we are in recovery and there are things that are important to us that make no sense whatsoever to our significant ones.
At the same time I alwasy try to remember that one of the rewards of my recovery is that I have my significant ones in my life today. I doubt I'll get high if I log off the computer for a few hrs, or if gasp I don't go to 2 meetings a day and fill a dozen service positions.
I believe that the rooms and teh fellwship are a wonderful training ground for "becoming responsible and productive" but recovery is a 24/7 event and I can find it anywhere I go if I am looking.
Please don't say goodbye .......
say so long.
Take a break, come back when the obsession has lifted.
You know what the first thing that came to my mind was..?
He resents the time and enthusiasm you set aside for SR.
Do you know what teh 2nd thought was....
counter manipulation on your part. "I"ll show him! I'll just quit coming to SR entirely.
I've heard "that damn computer" more times than I want to remember..... until I practiced the deliberate action of turning toward her and asking "what is it that you want?"
I guess getting caught up in the moment I hadn't relilzed how many times I had automatically replied "just a second..."
Yes we are in recovery and there are things that are important to us that make no sense whatsoever to our significant ones.
At the same time I alwasy try to remember that one of the rewards of my recovery is that I have my significant ones in my life today. I doubt I'll get high if I log off the computer for a few hrs, or if gasp I don't go to 2 meetings a day and fill a dozen service positions.
I believe that the rooms and teh fellwship are a wonderful training ground for "becoming responsible and productive" but recovery is a 24/7 event and I can find it anywhere I go if I am looking.
Please don't say goodbye .......
say so long.
Take a break, come back when the obsession has lifted.
Don't leave entirly NAmommy, I like reading your posts and you have helped me with them when I was going through rough times.
I really like wat Gooch said too, take a break and come back later.
(((Hugs)))
I really like wat Gooch said too, take a break and come back later.
(((Hugs)))
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: state of confusion
Posts: 16
Laurie/Namommy, your posts have been very helpful to me. I don't post much; I prefer to lurk first thing in the mornings and read things that help me to stay focused on my recovery during the day. (In May I came to the conclusion that hydrocodone was ruling my life and turning me into a person that I couldn't respect. I am the mother of two teenaged children)
Please take what I say with a grain of salt since I don't know you or your husband, but I have been married nearly 20 years, so I know how tough marriage can be. Add recovery to the mix and it gets even harder!
Your husband sounds selfish and manipulative in this instance. A bit harsh, I know, but you're going through a very trying time and he doesn't seem to be supporting you, he seems to be undermining your recovery. I mean, it's not like you're online looking at porn for hours a day.
Is counseling a possibility?
Please take what I say with a grain of salt since I don't know you or your husband, but I have been married nearly 20 years, so I know how tough marriage can be. Add recovery to the mix and it gets even harder!
Your husband sounds selfish and manipulative in this instance. A bit harsh, I know, but you're going through a very trying time and he doesn't seem to be supporting you, he seems to be undermining your recovery. I mean, it's not like you're online looking at porn for hours a day.
Is counseling a possibility?
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Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: QVB NYC NY
Posts: 620
we are selfish bitches/bastards NA mommy, before we found recovery we were selfish for the wrong reasons, today in recovery i am selfish for my own life. my life consists of being there for others, but i can't do this without being there for me first!
i was totally hookd on sr when i first found it 2 some odd years ago, i would rush home from a meeting and log on. after awhile i would skip meetings and fool myself into thinking that cyber meetings were all i needed. for me it didn't work, i needed real time face to face stuff more than cyber stuff....
getting to the point........
there is a balance, today i can be on sr, do me real time stuff, and have a life outside the program, granted the program is always with me.
do as gooch suggests.
p.s.
i loved the way almost everyone jumped on the bandwagon and trashed your hubby before hearing his side of the story!
aren't we alchy's and addicts great!
little suggestion people, TAKE IT EASY, LOL
i was totally hookd on sr when i first found it 2 some odd years ago, i would rush home from a meeting and log on. after awhile i would skip meetings and fool myself into thinking that cyber meetings were all i needed. for me it didn't work, i needed real time face to face stuff more than cyber stuff....
getting to the point........
there is a balance, today i can be on sr, do me real time stuff, and have a life outside the program, granted the program is always with me.
do as gooch suggests.
p.s.
i loved the way almost everyone jumped on the bandwagon and trashed your hubby before hearing his side of the story!
aren't we alchy's and addicts great!
little suggestion people, TAKE IT EASY, LOL
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