joey8262

can't open boozer's letter-but i've just put windows 7 on my laptop-the sticky note thing is great-just copied and pasted the letter at the top of the thread to it-now every time i start my laptop up it's going to be the first thing i see-i start my detox in 5 hours-it's 4.30 a.m here in uk and i can't sleep-absolutely bricking it-BUT i know before i can swim i have to stick my toe in the water-talking crap i know but thats how i'm looking at it-i've hit my bottom-i did last week-and today-IT ALL CHANGES-I TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

Amethyst2424

That letter is amazingly true. I never looked at it like that. I've lost most of my friends because I pushed them away. I have severe anxiety and feel depressed all the time. I'm in pain all day and night. Can barely sleep. Every time I feel the need to use, I will pull this letter out and read it. It will remind me that it's the addiction driving me to use and not me. I want to be me again. Not this drug addicted, depressed, broke, lonely, dependent on drugs, negative person. I miss me. I'm new to this sight and already you've all inspired me. Thank You.

Amethyst2424

Thank you so much for taking the time to share that with us. I've printed it out and save it to my desktop. This is my first step. Thank you so so much.

stellaloella

This has a lot of impact. Thanks for sharing it.

justjo

When I first read this letter I thought - This is disgusting!! I cried and cried some more.
The whole thing is true - I lost my precious sister to this 'creep' one year ago. The addiction won - how sad and I can only hope that this letter saves someone elses life too.JJ

liftedw8

tears of reality experienced with reading this. wow!!!

ThaBadGuy

thats deep, really makes you realise

MysteriousGrl

Thanks for sharing that. I wrote a letter to my addiction while I was in rehab and I'll share...

Dear Bitter Sweet Alcohol,

Our twenty one year rampage has to end. What started off as fun, has turned in to a living nightmare. You slowly and sneakily took control of my life and have destroyed me. I thought we were best friends? I depended on you to keep me company when no one else would. You helped me to escape all the pain and stresses, you gave me confidence and showed me how to have fun, but some where along the way you always managed to bring out the worst in me. You manipulated my thoughts and influenced me to do things that have caused so much pain and damage. I have to live with those regrets for the rest of my life. You've broken my heart and robbed me of my soul, leaving me high and dry. You told me I was nothing without you, and that you'd make everything better. All you've done is lie and cheat, and yet I kept coming back to you. The truth is we're no good for each other. How could I have been so blind for so long? It's been nothing but the same damn thing, the same lame excuses. Our 'friendship' is toxic and I will no longer let you poison and destroy me. I never thought I would be able to say this, but I truely hate you for what you've done to me. I have no more time or tears left for you.

Later you waste of space.

This was written a year ago, and now I could write a book to my addiction!

aeo1313

I may be the only one to disagree here, but I don't picture my addiction (or eating disorders in the past) as mean and evil. I picture them as a part of me that is trying its best to protect me, but doesn't know the correct way to do so. It wants me to be happy and in control, but goes about it in the wrong way.

I can't seem to get out the right words for what I am thinking...maybe it will come to me.

kiki5711

same could have been applied to my ex husband whom I had to get away from and go through severe withdrawals.

Easyrider

Brilliant post thank you.

Tallguy

Wow, great post, realizing more and more everyday

NewStep

That's really good. Thanks for sharing it with us.

Fatale

It makes me shiver and mad at myself for being weak. But it's the truth what it says in the letter and that is how it works.

Triple

Wow, I really needed to read that. Thank you for posting that.

Addiction is really mad at me right now. I have turned against my addiction. I am going to do whatever I can to get back my sleep filled nights.

SamanthaIam

Thank you for this. I copied it and emailed it to myself.

Minimum

Yes.This. So much, this. I don't want to let it win

Minimum

I've copied and pasted this.. you could have been writing this for me. Thanks x

envymeetfury

:/

neferkamichael

Roxann, a letter to my addictions? You are .