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Old 01-17-2005, 05:11 AM
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(((bruno))),
What's for breakfast? teehee. Guess I'll just have cereal. Ever do any online meetings? I have a friend on here who does the meetings with audio so it's pretty much as if she were on the phone. Sounds pretty cool. My connection isn't fast enough for that. Well, maybe you can get out next week, huh? Wishing you the best!
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Old 01-17-2005, 06:34 PM
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Hi Eddie-no, no online meetings..I can't use the puter in my office, as the snow has gotten so high it blocks the wireless signal...I use the owners puter in her cabin-she lives elsewhere..satellite fade is pretty common, but that isn't really the reason I don't do meetings...I can't deny that AA saved my life..very literally...it really is a miracle that I am sober at all..but I guess I choose to be somewhat disillusioned with the whole fraternity...ya know..I have this thing...problem that..I have tried to talk to some about but feel I am not taken too seriously..until I leave, but I never stay in touch..no matter where I am or who I know..I just ..bale after a few months... I guess it is a need to run or some such..but I have done it my entire life...I'm 42..the longest I have ever stayed in one town is about 3 yrs..having lived in every part of that town and having several jobs over that period...I get this "chronic malcontent" thing working where I just don't want to be here anymore and even if I have people that I am kinda close to..I get disgusted with "superficial" relationships..leave and don't stay in touch..I love it here, but I spend more time on the computer researching my next gig than I do focused on recovery...some days, it is all I can do to stay in the here and now..and convince myself it is allright..here and now...my life used to be total chaos..it was never boring...hard to explain...Love-B
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Old 01-17-2005, 08:16 PM
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Well buddy,


shame there isn't a lot of jobs here. You sure can give a good story of how this program works. I'm only sorry, that we've or, I should say I have lost contact with Donna.

You bring a lot of joy with your stories. I sure do hope to come out sometime and have you fix me a steak.

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Old 01-18-2005, 04:01 AM
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Originally Posted by bruno123
hard to explain.
Yeah, I didn't know what to say to your last post. I JUST turned 38 and have lived in the same town almost all that time and have never lived outside NC, so it's hard for me to understand the kind of chronic malcontent of which you spoke. I like to travel, but I always come home, you know? I hope someday you find some peace, bruno!

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Old 01-18-2005, 02:37 PM
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How you doing today Bruno?
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Old 01-18-2005, 07:03 PM
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Thanks eddie, That attachment was beautiful. For some reason, I've never seen much of the USA. In the service I traveled the world but, was never west of Chicago. And that was Great Lakes Boot Camp. I've always talked about taking a train ride across the country. Most of the talk was on a barstool and forgotten the next day. Now that I'm sober, I've got money to bring those dreams to life. So wonderful to have dreams and hope these days, don't you think? Don W
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Old 01-19-2005, 11:57 AM
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aLLEN,

HAVEN'T HEARD FROM U FOR A WHILE. hOPE YOU'RE THAWED OUT AT THAT RESORT. dID YOU CALL COLIN?


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Old 01-19-2005, 02:02 PM
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Don,
You're welcome! I took two cross-country trips in the summers of '93 and '94. My then-boyfriend and I took my 1980 Citation and alternately camped, slept in the car, and stayed in motels. I love trains, but a car gives you a lot more flexibility, I think. I recommend Craters of the Moon National Park in Idaho. Check it out on that National Parks site.

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Old 01-19-2005, 02:31 PM
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Here I am..fell..pretty seiously ill yesterday..fever and..ugh..nasty bug...so today I'm trying to catch up...I feel like getting in the car and getting somewhere..maybe I'll call Colin and spend a few days in San Fran...I really don't see when..I have to make sure everyone else gets their days off...one of my purveyors gave me a 3 day trip to Monterey.but I can't take it until March..I might be here..I might not..one promise I have made to myself is that I won't screw the owner or the resort over..I know no-one is indespensable...but I have already turned down other work cuz they wanted me right now..it could take months to get somebody up here ready to go...stay in today Bruno..hmmn..?
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Old 01-19-2005, 02:35 PM
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LOL

I saw you were on. i just had to find out where. Did you save the # I gave to Colin's house?
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Old 01-19-2005, 03:17 PM
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Originally Posted by bruno123
stay in today Bruno.
Hold that thought! LOL.

Sorry you've been ill, but glad you're feeling better now. And you're able to get out now? Bet that makes you feel better, too. Well, just wanted to see how you were.

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Old 01-28-2005, 08:03 PM
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little update...we had the road open, but go back on escort tonight...we broke a water line, so had no water for a couple days..this caused cancellation of about 100 guests..the Chef just loves hearing that..I made it to town one day..to get 3 teeth pulled, then I had to rush back up cuz the head Ranger Honcho from Washington came for a meeting and the owner figgered schmoozing might help get the Parks to help with the roads..this is the most frustrating job I have ever had as far as trying to figure menus and keep perishables w/o waste..my van died and my specs broke and no way can I get to town except for my next dental appt in 2 weeks...worst part of the teeth-letting is the vicodan..I'll be out sooner than I should and for a junkie knowing you are gonna be OUT is almost as bad as being out...got a big wedding this weekend and everyone just made it except for a couple we'll have to send someone to guide in..and you know what..it is all good..need for acceptance just never seemed so clear...change what I can and just deal with it...helps that the bride and groom and relatives from Europe are as nice as can be..they will love me before they leave(if you are nice you get extra special treatment from the Chef)...oh, yes, and lightning hit our tower so I haven't had a phone and maintenance just informed me they fixed it..and I don't hate them so I think I have weathered the worst of the "ran out of meds" ordeal...Life is good..rough for a bit there..
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Old 01-28-2005, 08:49 PM
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My life is boring LOL


phone me when u get a min.

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Old 01-29-2005, 05:40 AM
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Wow...wish I was there, sounds like a photographers paradise! In middle england right now its all rainy grey streets, overkast skies, and puddles with eighteen wheelers whosshing thru em! I love love to see a real winter wonderland, ive barely seen snow..it alaways melts as it hits the groud here
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Old 01-29-2005, 06:13 AM
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Originally Posted by bruno123
worst part of the teeth-letting is the vicodan.
"Teeth-letting?" teehee. I love it. Just be careful with that Vicodin! Do you have someone to dole it out to you next time? I'd be terrified if I had to take something like that. Then again, opiates were my thang, so I guess it's different for me.

Glad you're doing OK and thanks for the update! We're bracing ourselves here for a few inches of some kind of "wintry precipitation." It's always a big deal for us. I just hope it's SNOW, but I expect otherwise. Darn!

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