Redmayne

Whilst browsing the .net the other day. Still trying to find the answer to account for, drinking history aside, why I have faced so much adversity in my life, caused as much by the selfish, irresponsible actions and behavior of others in my personal and professional life. I came across this,

' When I look back on my life I am filled with gratitude.

All the sadness, all the joyus, all the failures, all the triumphs.

Have created who I am today.

I am the beautiful soul God has created me to be and I am truly blessed.' - Linda

Sobriety by the Grace of God.

I am not a religious man, I am very spiritual, said on the basis that,

' Religion is for those who are afraid of going to hell,

Spirituality is for those who've already been there.' - Vine Deloria, Sioux

This, more than adequately has returned me to 'feeling comfortable in my own skin' as I hope,in recovery it will do for all who read it...

D122y

I have adversity too and I am still trying to figure it out at this moment.

Right now it is like the pot is beginning to bubble on the way to boiling over.

I have been there 1000`s of times and will recover and then be there again.

Now sober, I am more proactive because I am not hamstrung by being drunk/hungover/detoxing/wreaking like booze. I am strong loud and proud.

Last night I was reminded of the hell I endured getting this clean.

I was in the nose bleed seats of a great show. As i stood to leave, the whole thing felt like I was perched on top of a steep cliff.

It was dark and I wobbled a little. As I left the theater down this angled curving hallway going down down down my gait was slightly compromised.

Like I was drunk.

I thought,..man to think i used to pay money, waste time, and risk everything to feel euphoric for 20 minutes a beer.

Thank God for the education and help SR gave me. I would be so lost otherwise.

I would rather think I am an addict and be wrong than not think it and be wrong.

I don't go to church much, I lost faith in organized religion, but I believe in God. I pray constantly.

Thanks.

sadforldr7

Hope I find this in myself soon. I'm over 100 days sober and have never felt so awful about myself, ashamed and unworthy.. just has not been nearly close to what others have experienced in their sobriety.

Desperately need the darkness to lift.

August252015

Love this - as per usual from you.

I read this today and it resonates:
"I still get very high and low in life. Daily. But I've finally accepted the fact that sensitive is just how I was made, that I don't have to hide it and I don't have to fix it.

I'm not broken."