Meisme

I have ptsd from things that happened while I was drinking, and doing drugs. I also drank did drugs to deal with my ptsd after it was diagnosed.
I find this is a vicious cycle to be in. I am in therapy, and attend meetings, but every time I would get a flashback I would reach for weed, or beer. I think this has caused a horrid cycle of abuse. I now equate emotional pain with the need to self medicate.
I have a therapist, and go to meetings, and yet still have been drinking and continuing to destroy myself.
I found this site and thought the extra out of meeting support would help. I'm wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences with getting sober and being duel diagnosed?

PhoenixJ

I have so many diagnosis they would fill a small telephone book. You say you NEED to self medicate. Are you completely honest with your professional/personal support people- and to yourself? Especially if you mix weed and booze with prescribed meds. That is a very dangerous pathway.
Support offered.

Meisme

I have been diagnosed with everything under the sun as well. I don't need to self medicate any more, and thank you for the look at words chosen. I need to be sober, and work on my complex ptsd, and my therapist said my choice to go back to AA was a good one.
I don't need to go into a psychosis, and that is a huge danger for mixing meds and booze and weed as its happened before. I
I take you support, and will use it. Thank you!

Maudcat

Welcome, Meisme. AA can be really really helpful, as can talking to a therapist. You are doing the right things and it will pay off. Be patient. Ypur PTSD wasn't acquired in a day, nor will it ease up in a day.
Try not to drink. That makes things worse. Good luck. Keep coming back.