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hey, i never thought id do something so civlized! im going to go home and make a pot of tea and drink a few cups. its decaf mind you.

i am surprisingly relaxed considering i just had to tell a business aquaintance of mine that their relative was in fact a trick of mine. hmmm. i tried not to say anything, but i forsaw that the trick in question would find out their relative was working with me and then yeah. i figured i had better say something and just clear things up before they turned into a big problem. i think i have no ego anymore or something. i had no problem saying, "once i had this drug problem and i was homeless and i was paid by your relative to do the naughty dance". and i am so calm right now after having said that. its great. well, i just never thought i would be so candid about that. i seriously am feeling great, like now i dont have to worry. and now i can go home and have a pot of tea. yes, im going to drink most of the pot by myself. since i dont smoke cigarettes anymore i find i drink a lot of water and decaf tea.

anywho, maybe im having a nervous breakdown but i feel fine. i would think i would not be so okay with having to deal with the above mentioned problem. lets hope for the best: its not a nervous breakdown, im just rocking on.

Chy

Dang! Your to cool gal! Feels good to not hide within our addictions huh? *hugs*

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your right, it feels good not to hide! i was afraid that my saying that to the person the way i did was not entirely appropriate but it was not easy to say. so, what came out was sort of impulsive because if i thought about it i wouldnt say it. fortunately the person didnt think i was crude, they knew about the sleeziness of their relative. which made me feel a little better. actually, i dont feel bad, just a little worried now that what i said was inappropriate. but, your reply helped me clear that up chy! thanks!

big hugs,

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ted

THERE YA GO!!!!

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and now its time to go home and make tea! i love that smiley ted! rock on!