From Recovery to Discovery....and Beyond
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From Recovery to Discovery....and Beyond
So as I move forward.
I am trying to imagine what recovery is. Yes, it means no alchohol. thats the easy part for me. but it goes further than that.
to recover something, it means to get back something lost. well i do not want to be like i used to be, a fearful, hopeless, resentful being. NOPE, good riddance to that. I want more than a recovery.
so how about discovery? well, to discover something, means to find something you haven't come across before. well, i don't know about any of you here, but, i sure as hell do not want to find something i do not want either.
so after all that, all is left is desire.
so i must make a list
and fill a pint pot!!
oh god...what do i even want?
is the world really my oyster?
tonight i am going to randomly make a list of things i want
I am trying to imagine what recovery is. Yes, it means no alchohol. thats the easy part for me. but it goes further than that.
to recover something, it means to get back something lost. well i do not want to be like i used to be, a fearful, hopeless, resentful being. NOPE, good riddance to that. I want more than a recovery.
so how about discovery? well, to discover something, means to find something you haven't come across before. well, i don't know about any of you here, but, i sure as hell do not want to find something i do not want either.
so after all that, all is left is desire.
so i must make a list
and fill a pint pot!!
oh god...what do i even want?
is the world really my oyster?
tonight i am going to randomly make a list of things i want
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I wouldn't say that putting down the alcohol was the easy part for me.
Recovery/discovery; whatever you want to call it is grand.
I also wouldn't say that, for me, all that was left was desire.
The counterpoint for my desires was fear.
Confronting and allaying my fears was more difficult than moderating my desires.
Perhaps we should have two lists?
No, three. Nearly forgot the gratitude list.
The world is our oyster.
Recovery/discovery; whatever you want to call it is grand.
I also wouldn't say that, for me, all that was left was desire.
The counterpoint for my desires was fear.
Confronting and allaying my fears was more difficult than moderating my desires.
Perhaps we should have two lists?
No, three. Nearly forgot the gratitude list.
The world is our oyster.
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Beyond the recovery/discovery thing, i have found my list is made up of one thing.
I couldn't get much further because
1. I had a panic attack, which led to
2. Realizing I had a pre-desire of wanting to be perfect first!
i must have this before i can have that.
i must be this before i can have that.
I am doing an awful lot of demanding on myself. no wonder i had a panic attack.
I am alright as i am. i must be, otherwise i wouldn't have panicked.
@ Dox, I was going to type " The world is our oyster" but i realized I cannot speak for someone else. for all i know it may be someone's brussell sprout
I couldn't get much further because
1. I had a panic attack, which led to
2. Realizing I had a pre-desire of wanting to be perfect first!
i must have this before i can have that.
i must be this before i can have that.
I am doing an awful lot of demanding on myself. no wonder i had a panic attack.
I am alright as i am. i must be, otherwise i wouldn't have panicked.
@ Dox, I was going to type " The world is our oyster" but i realized I cannot speak for someone else. for all i know it may be someone's brussell sprout
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...but it goes further than that. to recover something, it means to get back something lost.
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Originally Posted by Boleo 
What I "RECOVERED" is freedom from thoughts of drinking. The same attitude that I had towards alcohol that I had as a child before experiencing any Inebriations. Liberation from needing a substance to cope with life's challenges.
Its day 3 of no drink and my coffee is getting stronger. that will go too after i make a first meeting next week.
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