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Hi ,
Today I'm struggling with my hangover from alcohol.
I have been sober the past year after many blackout episodes , people hurt and life of regret .
I went out with some colleagues from my career path and started drinking again !!! I had over 5 pints of beer and I'm totally hating myself right now .
Although I didn't get black out drunk or make a show of myself I feel riddled with guilt and very depressed for drinking. I'm ashamed of myself for being weak and indulging in alcohol.
The reasoning behind my relapse was severe anxiety / panick attacks . I have been plagued with these and depression for the past 7 years now. I recently graduated from postgraduate degree and managed to stay sober for the entire year.
Right now I could really do with some advice and support , I can't talk to my family as I feel so ashamed of myself
Today I'm struggling with my hangover from alcohol.
I have been sober the past year after many blackout episodes , people hurt and life of regret .
I went out with some colleagues from my career path and started drinking again !!! I had over 5 pints of beer and I'm totally hating myself right now .
Although I didn't get black out drunk or make a show of myself I feel riddled with guilt and very depressed for drinking. I'm ashamed of myself for being weak and indulging in alcohol.
The reasoning behind my relapse was severe anxiety / panick attacks . I have been plagued with these and depression for the past 7 years now. I recently graduated from postgraduate degree and managed to stay sober for the entire year.
Right now I could really do with some advice and support , I can't talk to my family as I feel so ashamed of myself
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Dear angel, don't beat yourself up. You stayed sober for one year. That is awesome. You know how to stay sober, start back up. You will feel better. Have you ever tried "urge surfing" you might want to google it. I use this method to handle anxiety. I don't have panic attacks anymore. And/or a trip to the dr to address the depression. You can do this. Very best to you.
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Thanks for your prompt reply .
I have never tried urge surfing but will most definitely give it a go. I am on meds for depression.
My problem today is this guilt and shame I feel like I can't look at myself in the mirror I really hate myself right now for drinking and can't shake the feeling at all.
You are right in that I can start back up again.
I have never tried urge surfing but will most definitely give it a go. I am on meds for depression.
My problem today is this guilt and shame I feel like I can't look at myself in the mirror I really hate myself right now for drinking and can't shake the feeling at all.
You are right in that I can start back up again.
Thanks for your prompt reply .
I have never tried urge surfing but will most definitely give it a go. I am on meds for depression.
My problem today is this guilt and shame I feel like I can't look at myself in the mirror I really hate myself right now for drinking and can't shake the feeling at all.
You are right in that I can start back up again.
I have never tried urge surfing but will most definitely give it a go. I am on meds for depression.
My problem today is this guilt and shame I feel like I can't look at myself in the mirror I really hate myself right now for drinking and can't shake the feeling at all.
You are right in that I can start back up again.
Hi FA,
Sorry to hear about the relapse you had but good to see you posting about it. As the previous posters said, " no good comes from beating ourselves up ". I hope you can turn this into a positive learning experience for yourself and move forward with a renewed attitude . I wish you well and hope to see you around.
Ando.
Sorry to hear about the relapse you had but good to see you posting about it. As the previous posters said, " no good comes from beating ourselves up ". I hope you can turn this into a positive learning experience for yourself and move forward with a renewed attitude . I wish you well and hope to see you around.
Ando.
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