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I can not imagine going back out and finding that will to stop again. WOW that would be so very hard. I like how I feel now. Not really any cravings, just rationalizing. And it just takes some good "talking myself down" to realize how the addict in me is rearing its ugly head. Can anyone else relate???

Dot :pumpkin:

Chy

You got that right sister! *hugs*

Dan

Big time relate dotty. Last few days especilly. In spite of myself, replaying old war stories in my mind and somehow imagining a different outcome. I feel like bringing the old hammer out for a couple of good shots to my ego.
Thanks dot.

DD

eddie z.

You KNOW about the trouble that kind of thinking got me into. And by the end of it, I WAS craving. Icky-poo!!

I take a medication that is supposed to reduce cravings, but it also blocks the effects of opiates so I have a pretty significant disincentive to use. Too bad there's not something like it for meth!

I probably couldn't use even if I wanted to. I don't have any veins left.

Love, Eddie

indigo

Dotster I remember it only too well.....I have'nt used for years but that demon addiction told me to use and I agreed I was'nt drinking after all. It all came back to me and i don't ever ever wan't to go back there. It scared the living daylights out of me.

i am watching my thoughts from now on, don't want them getting any more suicidal ideas LOL;

Indigo back rocking bizz

Here are your chicks hope that's enough for you little sis

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Thank you for the replies everyone! (((Annie))) You are rocking on! And thank you for the chickies. I so love chickies. I have seen some at the zoo and they chirp and are fluffy with pokey beaks. They are scared of me though! But I still love them.

Hugs to all of ya,

Dotster

NOD

Hey Dot,
I keep remembering what it was like before I cleaned up and I honestly don't know how I survived. I'm just starting to realize now why I survived. God has a plan for me and I want to be around to see it.
Keep thinking good thoughts.
Prayers comming your way,
Nodd (Jerry)

eddie z.

Indigo,
Are those some kind of French birdie that we don't have here? They sure don't look familiar to me.

Jerry,
Good to hear from you. Someone else was looking for you, but I can't remember who or where.

Love to all,
Eddie

indigo

Eddie LOL i don't know what the birdies are it just said 'chicks' and i could'nt even tell with my glasses on LOL!
so we can't even have a 'guess the birdie competition, cause no-one knows what they are!!!

love Indie

This I think is a universal chick.

eddie z.

Indigo,

Yep! That one's pretty universal.

Love, Eddie