slimjim30

I am clean of smokes for 16 years, alcohol for 7 years, and stumbling in and out of heroin addiction.

I still take unprescribed armodafinil / nuvigil 300mg a day, prescribed 60mg methadone per day, prescribed tranylcypromine 50mg per day, 20mg pantoprazole prescribed per day and presribed Ativan 1-2mg twice a week. Am I clean? I don't think I could move without the armodafinil as I have zero motivation otherwise. The Ativan helps me not go insane.

I feel sober. Armodafinil isn't a narcotic and Ativan / Methadone / pantoprazole and tranylcypromine is precribed by the same doctor who knows EVERYTHING about my drug history. He won't prescribe the armodafinil as he doesn't know wnough about it - but it doesn't oncern him.

Am I sober? Or am I relying on way too many drugs as is?

Edit - I should add that I vape, chew danish tobacco rolls, and swedish snush

slimjim30

The Armodafinil is finally coming up so I can finally type. Because I drop my kid to school I only take tranylcypromine and pantoprazole b4 driving, and methadone b4 bed.