DangerZone

I had 13-days clean of coke and meth. Last Saturday I screwed up and did some coke. Not a lot but enough to keep me high pretty much all night and if there was more I'm pretty sure I'd have done it.

I thought that the only way I'd do coke or meth was if I was drunk because that is only time I used it in the past. I I wasn't drinking so I was thought I'd be fine but then I ended up hanging out with this old friend with benefits I used to have and we always used to do blow before we had sex. She offered some and it triggered a strong craving. Long story short I ended up doing it and making some bad decisions that night like I always do when I do coke..

I am thinking it is best I stay away from her until I get a couple months clean. Right now I clearly am not recovered I am in recovery. I would like to see her again eventually. She is a friend. My question to you all is how long should I wait to see her?

Any advice would be deeply appreciate because I really want to kick this habit it is ruining my life.

Thanks guys.

tomls

People,places and things. I had to change them all. There is no way I could make it without doing that. I guess it just depends on how bad you want to stop!

Misc72

If she is really your friend then she won't offer you drugs. Or give them to you if you ask her. I've found that my relapses have made my will to be sober stronger. Because I forget the pain of using and then think I can and then when I do, I feel awful physically, mentally and every way imaginable. And then I remember how good I feel when I'm totally clear minded, clear conscience and clear of substance. Let this relapse be the catapult to your true conviction to Stay Stopped!

Dee74

Hi Danger Zone

I tried hard to just not drink or drug and keep my old life as it was - but my old life was all about drinking and drugging. I had a couple of friendships built on that too.

Some of my friends understood what I wanted to do and supported me in my decision to stay sober and clean - the rest I had to let go.

D

CRRHCC

Explain to your friend(s) you no longer do drugs. You have determined that you are not at your best when under the influence.
You value being at your best.

If you were a diabetic, friends would not, "Insist," you have some of their dessert (sugar) and risk ketoacidosis. By the same token if you had a peanut allergy, no one would insist you try their nuts and risk anaphylactic shock.