6 Years no cocaine this month.
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6 Years no cocaine this month.
On the 10th made it 6 years without cocaine. I seem to be forgetting about it all. Weird that I don't seem to be able to appreciate all the effort I put into it and success I've achieved over this time, though I am confident I won't use again. 
Snoochies!
You give us such strong hope! 
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Congratulations, Michael! There are many people who cannot say what you just said. Do you have any other posts about your story or about your cocaine addiction? I am not an addict and my ex left me due to his cocaine addiction and I am having a hard time wrapping my head around things...
Congrats again!
Congrats again!
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Wow 6 years you are so grand.. like my hubby its hard for him to see the better light he is in now off Morphine for 2 years...
just a note for wisdom.. if you would use again. your body may throw you a curve ball that you would never recover from.. Life is so much better .. trust this old lady clown.. look in the Mirror and see the Better Person you have become smile and they will smile back.. hugs hugs hugs..
just a note for wisdom.. if you would use again. your body may throw you a curve ball that you would never recover from.. Life is so much better .. trust this old lady clown.. look in the Mirror and see the Better Person you have become smile and they will smile back.. hugs hugs hugs..
Originally Posted by neferkamichael 
On the 10th made it 6 years without cocaine. I seem to be forgetting about it all. Weird that I don't seem to be able to appreciate all the effort I put into it and success I've achieved over this time, though I am confident I won't use again.
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Congratulations that is such an achievement i wish I can get to the place you are at.
I have heavily used Coke for 20years. Over the last 3 years I have repeatedly had the same pattern of 30-90 days clean time, then relapsing again. I have attended at least three meetings a week, as difficult with work and 3 kids to do more. The behaviour of being sneaky, lying automatically through years of doing it in addiction, subconsciously in denial, has not improved. I am on last thread to losing my wife and kids, as I have had so many chances and repeatedly let my self, and family down bring hurt to us all. Even know I see the hurt, and know i have had many last chances, I have constantly relapsed where the addict gives me the thought and goes from a thought, to picking up within less than an hour. I have never been great with sharing in meetings, with all eyes on me. I usually sit there thinking what am I going to say, and the nerves build up and I can't do it. I use mainly to block thoughts or feelings or hurt, which o have done since I was young, as I was taught from a young age boys don't cry, so struggle still to show emotions. I have also never believed in religion or god, so it's a struggle finding my HP. This is probably my biggest share to people I don't know to date! My first post on this forum and look forward to engaging lots, and hopefully will help me share more in person.
If you can offer any advice with recovery from addiction to Coke, I would be so grateful.
Good luck in the future.
35 days clean.
Mr Denial- I am a addict.
I have heavily used Coke for 20years. Over the last 3 years I have repeatedly had the same pattern of 30-90 days clean time, then relapsing again. I have attended at least three meetings a week, as difficult with work and 3 kids to do more. The behaviour of being sneaky, lying automatically through years of doing it in addiction, subconsciously in denial, has not improved. I am on last thread to losing my wife and kids, as I have had so many chances and repeatedly let my self, and family down bring hurt to us all. Even know I see the hurt, and know i have had many last chances, I have constantly relapsed where the addict gives me the thought and goes from a thought, to picking up within less than an hour. I have never been great with sharing in meetings, with all eyes on me. I usually sit there thinking what am I going to say, and the nerves build up and I can't do it. I use mainly to block thoughts or feelings or hurt, which o have done since I was young, as I was taught from a young age boys don't cry, so struggle still to show emotions. I have also never believed in religion or god, so it's a struggle finding my HP. This is probably my biggest share to people I don't know to date! My first post on this forum and look forward to engaging lots, and hopefully will help me share more in person.
If you can offer any advice with recovery from addiction to Coke, I would be so grateful.
Good luck in the future.
35 days clean.
Mr Denial- I am a addict.
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