Shay626

I've been struggling with my drinking since I was 17 (I'm now 27). I don't drink every day, sometimes even for a couple weeks, but when I do, I binge drink. I black out and either lose something or do something I regret. I hate living this way but it's been so hard for me to quit drinking. I am currently going through a divorce and I know drinking hasn't helped my healing one bit. I want to be happy, I don't want to feel like anxiety anymore. I hate that alcohol has control over my life in some type of way. I don't have many friends in Hawaii where I am currently living, but the ones I do have, drink and party. I'm so scared of being lonely in this divorce process but I don't know who to reach to. I've been so depressed lately and am missing my ex and I feel like I'm getting out of control I want to be sober but i keep failing over and over again.. I just want to live a happy sober life and I am worried of failing again. Plus my divorce is really taking a toll on my emotions. It was a short marriage but has broke me in every way.

Dee74

Hi shay
I was an all day everyday drinker who couldn't go 3 days without a drink.

Finding support here really was a gamechanger for me. It meant the world that people understood my problem and cared what happened to me. The advice and support I got here not only got me sober but has kept me that way.

I'm really glad you've joined us.

Shay626

Thank you so much. That's all I'm looking for is support because I feel very alone on this :/

smileagain12

You are not alone - you have us!

Keep posting and stay strong. we are here for you!

Shay626

Thank you. I truly appreciate that. This has just caused so much depression and anxiety and I just want to be able to get it under control.

Stronger2017

Welcome to SR👋 I'm sorry to hear about your divorce and I totally understand the blackout thing. I have pretty much zero control over those😩 Good luck with getting sober and see you around the forums!