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Old 08-22-2016, 12:43 PM
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Unhappy New: half a year lost to substance abuse and alcohol.

Hi all:

I was a daily cocaine user. Started in April and lasted until just the other week. I won't go into how much I used a day. It's enough to say it was too much. As my tolerance started growing with the cocaine and I was only experiencing the agitation, no longer the pleasure from the upper effects, I started drinking to even things out. I also started taking benadryl. So basically I was walking around feeling like I had a sheet over my head all day but the withdrawal felt like something worse.

I didn't eat for most of the time I was doing these things and lost a lot of weight.

I finally took control and am going to detox soon, even though I've not used for the past week. The reason I'm going into treatment even though I stopped using is the withdrawal is too difficult. Night sweats are one thing, but the sadness, the black hole of nothing I feel from the dopamine or whatever it is that has plummeted, I can't take it.

I am looking for some support through my sobriety. I never want to pick up a bottle or drugs again.

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Hi Augustine

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I find the depression hard with withdrawals as well, also wasted a lot of my life and don't think I'll ever get back to the lifestyle I should have so the regrets are crushing

.....but bad thoughts wont kill you the drugs will, stay strong and just try and walk through the storm, good luck!
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Happy to meet you, augustine.

It's good you're going to detox & getting the extra advice/help you need. Meanwhile, you're among friends who understand - most of us share the same feelings of regret & remorse. It helps to know we aren't alone. I lost decades of my life - you don't have to. Congrats on making this big decision.
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Welcome to the forum Augustine. You'll find a lot of support here.

I think going to treatment is a great idea. Let us know how you get on

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Old 08-22-2016, 10:30 PM
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Originally Posted by IWalkTheLine View Post
bad thoughts wont kill you the drugs will, stay strong and just try and walk through the storm, good luck!
Thank you, this is an amazing point.
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Old 08-22-2016, 10:31 PM
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Dear all,

Thank you so much for your kindness. I'm definitely going to treatment. No question. I'm just a little nervous.

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Welcome to the forum Augustine. I think we were all a little nervous the first time we reached out for help. You should feel proud that you took this step.
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Old 08-23-2016, 12:22 PM
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Thank you so much. Keep thinking about IWalktheLine's quote
"bad thoughts wont kill you the drugs will."

Thank you all again.
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Best of luck!!!
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