Day six!!!!
Day six!!!!
I'm sorry I haven't had the motivation to type out something everyday but today is day six that i have not touched ANY heroin or oxycodone! still doing the taper with the subs..Feeling a lot more like myself recently...having dreams again.(and nightmares) but overall I'm happy with my choice and I'm excited for the great things in life to come!! .today is the first day going down on the subs also so wish me luck!
Welcome graywh1teblue.
I did a sub taper once, when the subs ran out not long after that I fell flat on my face and I was right back to copping dope and pills. Why? Because I was in big denial and I had no after plan for long term recovery.
Don't make the same mistake I made. I thought I can stay clean on willpower alone and boy was I wrong. It wasn't long after my last sub my mind started playing games with me. The obsession to use became stronger then my willpower to stay clean. Slowly but surely I convince myself I had another run in me. I went out for another three years shooting dope and popping pills.
After my last and final relapse In 2004, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and decided I had enough of this life. The same length I put into copping my dope, this time out I was going to go to any length to stay clean.
My suggestion is to educate yourself. Read anything and everything that has to do with recovery. Reach out and find counseling or if you can outpatient group therapy. Attend meetings If you're into that.The whole idea in early recovery is to keep your self busy and you are mind occupied away from your drug of choice. There's no better therapy In my opinion then being around other recovering addicts who understand exactly what you're going through.
I know this for a fact, left to my own devices when I got clean and sober in 2004 I would not be here to share my experience strength and hope.
Hugs and prayers
TB
I did a sub taper once, when the subs ran out not long after that I fell flat on my face and I was right back to copping dope and pills. Why? Because I was in big denial and I had no after plan for long term recovery.
Don't make the same mistake I made. I thought I can stay clean on willpower alone and boy was I wrong. It wasn't long after my last sub my mind started playing games with me. The obsession to use became stronger then my willpower to stay clean. Slowly but surely I convince myself I had another run in me. I went out for another three years shooting dope and popping pills.
After my last and final relapse In 2004, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired and decided I had enough of this life. The same length I put into copping my dope, this time out I was going to go to any length to stay clean.
My suggestion is to educate yourself. Read anything and everything that has to do with recovery. Reach out and find counseling or if you can outpatient group therapy. Attend meetings If you're into that.The whole idea in early recovery is to keep your self busy and you are mind occupied away from your drug of choice. There's no better therapy In my opinion then being around other recovering addicts who understand exactly what you're going through.
I know this for a fact, left to my own devices when I got clean and sober in 2004 I would not be here to share my experience strength and hope.
Hugs and prayers
TB
Congratulations on day 6. I know it's not easy. Take Timebuster's advice, he's right on. And keep coming back for support, there's lots here.
And I really appreciate your tag line. As an opiate addict too (though I never did heroin) that describes it exactly. It gives you wings but takes away the sky. That sentence packs a lot of meaning and experience and wisdom into just a few words. Thanks for that, I needed to read that.
And I really appreciate your tag line. As an opiate addict too (though I never did heroin) that describes it exactly. It gives you wings but takes away the sky. That sentence packs a lot of meaning and experience and wisdom into just a few words. Thanks for that, I needed to read that.
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