It's officially day 7!!!!
 

I made it! I made it! Oh my gosh. It's been one week since I used. In 20 years I have not gine more than a day or two with NOTHING. I did some hard work today toward making reparations. My mind is spinning with all I need to make right. I feel free. My son cried tonight. He's 16 and I haven't seen him cry since he was little. He said he is proud of me. He said my face is different. In a good way :) thanking God and feeling proud.

We're all proud of you too MamaHawk...it's not been easy, but this is a great milestone :)

Never forget this week, and you'll never go back.
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Yay!!!!! Your doing it!!!!! God Bless you and your family!!!!

Mona

WOW this just made my NIGHT!!!!! This is incredible!!!! Don't think about everything you have to do to make things right, that is your addict brain thinking too much. Just think about today, staying sober for today. AND YOU ARE DOING SUPER SUPER WELL!!!! 7 days is AWESOME!!! Keep up the amazing work.

How wonderful mamma

Congratulations mama!! So proud of you :) 7 days is awesome :)

Hang in there mama, I'm on the same journey day 16 for me. We can do this. I'm sure you've read this but I read it every couple of days as a reminder. I didn't write it but it hits home......

PILLS ----- I destroy homes, tear families apart, take your children, and that's just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold, the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold, and if u need me, remember I'm easily found. I live all around you, in schools and in town. I live with the rich, I live with the poor, I live down the street, and maybe next door. My power is awesome; try me ....... you'll see, but if you do, you may never break free. Just try me once and I might let you go, but try me twice, and I'll own your soul.
When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie. You do what you have to just to get high. The crimes you'll commit, for my narcotic charms will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms. You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad When you see their tears, you should feel sad. But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised, I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways. I take kids from parents, and parents from kids, I turn people from god, and separate from friends. I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride, I'll be with you always, right by your side. You'll give up everything your family, your home, your friends, your money, then you'll be alone. I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give. When I'm finished with you you'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned this is no game. If given the chance, I'll drive you insane. I'll ravish your body; I'll control your mind. I'll own you completely; your soul will be mine. The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed, the voices you'll hear from inside your head, the sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see; I want you to know, these are all gifts from me, But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart, that you are mine, and we shall not part. You'll regret that you tried me, they always do, but you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen. Many times you were told, but you challenged my power, and chose to be bold. You could have said no, and just walked away, If you could live that day over, now what would you say? I'll be your master; you will be my slave, I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave. Now that you have met me , what will you do? Will you try me or not? Its all up to you. I can bring you more misery than words can tell. Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell...

Sprung Poppy I have never seen that and I am literally crushed and crying me eyes out right now.

It hits home....it help me remember how far I've came here on day 16 and so have you!! I'll make my kids read that one day. Good luck and I'll help you anyway I can. I know the hell your in.

I'm still just all tore up after I read that. Every word is true.

Lost my daddy in 2012 and he hadn't spoke to me in 8 months because if this

We should have read that years ago

Yes

I'm just setting very small goals and counting the smallest of wins. The laziness is the worse part for me. But to be honest I was just as lazy high lol so it's a mindset for me. Stay positive!!!

I'm positive your dad's looking down on you and smiling today!!!

I hope so I still haven't even grieved him.

Baby steps. There's time. I'm new to all this myself.. Relapse after relapse after relapse. I swear there's a devil on my shoulder but I'm learning to tell him to shut the f*** up.

I was completely opposite. Using amped me up. I would use thinking I would sit and enjoy then cook clean do laundry like crazy. It's so weird how we are so different yet the same.

That blew me away. I'm crushed but in a good way. I'm proud of you. How long for you?

I thought it amped me up too. Looking back though I'm not as sure. My work is struggling as pills got me through the work day. My job is very physical and I've worked throughout these 16 days. It's getting better little win at a time.