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yet another problem with relapse - possible death although I have seen this many times over the years I first witnessed this back in 1971 with my friend Scott Scott was known to drink booze heavy and on most occasions he washed down 15 to 20 reds (SECONAL) with his booze I had heard that Scott had gotten clean and sober but he returned to drinking and using and was spending the night with his girlfriend reportedly while drunk he ate around 20 reds Scott never woke up he was found suffocated with his head in his pillow a major problem for us is if we relapse is in our minds we think that we can take the same amount as we did before when we were doing some heavy using in many cases this causes death because our bodies are not ready for such an amount after being dry for a while six or seven years ago I would drive the motorhome down to the lake park turn on the TV pop 5 or more Valium and wash them down with some strong booze drink after some time sober once I went back to this old sad routine when I woke up after some heavy sleep my right ear was ringing what happened not sure but I think I came close to not waking up my ear is still ringing today helps to remind me what's really going on a good life without booze or drugs Mountainman |
Something I experienced during a relapse. I got clean/sober. Life sucked and I didn't know how to handle it. I used again. It sucked. So what was there left for me? That desperation...because even my old "go to"...drugs and booze..failed me. So my inclination was to pile it higher and deeper....good old addict thinking...and yup, came pretty close to dying in my puke. Somehow I got the idea, since piling on more booze and drugs didn't work, to try to pile SOBRIETY on higher and deeper. Apparently a wise decisions as I am not only alive, but puke free! |
I don't take it for granted today
Originally Posted by Threshold
(Post 4117180)
Somehow I got the idea, since piling on more booze and drugs didn't work, to try to pile SOBRIETY on higher and deeper. Apparently a wise decisions as I am not only alive, but puke free! nice story told Threshold regarding your recovery I also went back to the old booze and drugs too many times slow learner here I guess it still amazes me that I'm sober today and as I did before take my sobriety for granted I don't take being sober for granted today have a blessed day Mountainman |
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