the urge
 

been clean 9 mo. still having strong urges to use and drink. i feel like i am being haunted sometimes. i attend 3 meeting a week talk to my sponser every day. it's a war in my head. i am one bad decisson away from disaster.that scares me. i am glad to be able to vent and ask for help today my sponser tells me (feelings aren't facts & and thoughts aren't reality)

we are all just one bad decision away from disaster and whether you have 1 week or 10 years it always just right there, lurking!l