Day 2. Please God let there be more.
 

So today is day two clean from pain pills.... This is not my first attempt over the past month.
I have been taking pain pills everyday for the past 3months now and never in my life would have thought i would have become to hooked and helpless.
i am 19 years old and once again never thought WD from any medicine or drug would be so terrifying and painful.

Usually at day two i feel like complete poo. but this time it feels different?
Maybe im just so sick of taking the damn things. Or sick of myself and what i have become....
My back is really sore. My find is some what foggy....
The diareahha hasn't hit yet.. and i hope it doesnt because that symptom and not being able to eat is what always makes me relapse.

I have been praying to God non stop.. which i haven't in a long time.
I missed him.
I have been eating Banana's and drinking gatorade.

I really want to continue this everyday. and hope i dont feel any worse :(

I know i need help beyond just me and God..but im not sure what to do from here.

Scared. Proud. Excited. lonely. confussed. TIRED> Just want out!!!

i did make a apointment for monday for suboxone but im not sure if thats the best route... do i really need it?

** my MIND is foggy

Welcome to the foggy mind syndrome - it won't go away overnight but it WILL go away. I am living proof and I was on a higher longer dose than you were so hang in there!!!

Great job!!

Hi sundrop,

I'm glad you're doing as well as you are. You CAN do this!

As to suboxone, think twice as to whether you want to look ahead to withdrawing from yet another drug. Read the threads on the suboxone forum if you haven't done that yet.

The decision is truly a medical one, made WITH your doctor and not self medicated with suboxone bought off the street.

Good luck, and tell us how you do.

FT