IN my world
 

atake is the best form of diffense

It's not Jazz. This is your addiction talking.

The best form of defense is support.

I really hope you decide to get some help and get yourself into some kind of a programme whether its AA or NA or some other recovery group, or some form of rehab, or counselling

I fought my addictions alone for years - it was always one step forward three steps back.

I was fighting myself - and no matter what the outcome, no matter whether I drank or drugged that night I always lost because sooner or later I'd go backwards again.

It was an endless loop.

When I found support, and made some real changes, the balance began to change.

D

dee
 

that endlass loop is my life at the moment but i am making progress

its like starting from the bottom like a child lering new things

but in an addult body with all the responsabilaty that goes along with it

its hard man for me eny way

a lot of people look up to me im good at what i do

and i feal like im faking it im to onest and keeping secrets like my past

is crushing me

the truth would set me free mentaly but id be banckrupt in seconds

no one trusts a smack head

Alcohol doesn't seem like much of a solution to this problem to me Jazz.

It's hard for everybody - the problems may be different - but it's hard for everyone.
That's why I reckon you'd do better with support.

It's hard enough dealing with an addiction, let alone carrying the secrets of a lifetime as well.

I hope you reach out.

D