How to get to step 2??
 

I do believe that God can restore order and sanity. I just feel that I do a good job at it also. Still working on step one that i'm not in control. How do people ever get past step 1???

Step One is all about acceptance. Until you accept it and believe a power greater than yourself can restore you to sanity you will stay stuck there.

No mater what you do the addict will do as they wish, that is the free will god gave all of us. As your will is still stuck on someone else instead of just yourself.