Amends and peace
 

"8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all."

Soul cleansing :) Praying that those who I have offended or harmed in some way will find it in their hearts to forgive, and who will also find peace. This -- making amends -- is an ongoing focus, and I have found some peace when I have addressed past wrongs and offensive behavior.

I've still amends to make, though, it seems it might be that timing is everything (?)...IDK. Some I would like to spend time with and speak to are not able to be approached at this time, so I am hoping for the opportunity and the nerve to do this at some point in time.

The good news is that amends can be started long before approaching participants.

For me, a big part of the process was "mending" my behavior so that I no longer behaved in the manner that prompted the need for an amends in the first place. By no means am I downplaying the importance of an apology, but an apology is only the tip of the iceberg. I can jump into action before the appropriate time comes along for the apology.

Everything in due time when the universe deems it is time, not necessarily when I want.

Nez: Very insightful post. What you shared helps me to futher consider the importance of healing and learning in the process of recovery. I'm not young but yet am never too old to learn.

I'm feeling confidence gained and sticking with committing to following through are so very important for me; otherwise, I probably would make excuses or find some reason, any reason to instead choose avoidance. Practice makes perfect.