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Old 03-19-2018, 09:55 AM   #1 (permalink)
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Earth Prayers, part 3


Here's a new Earth Prayers thread, just in time for the spring equinox tomorrow!

Link to the old thread: https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-2-a-25.html (Earth Prayers, part 2)
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To survive, our minds must taste redwood, and agate, octopi, bat, and in the bat’s mouth, insect. It’s hard to think like a planet, but we’ve got to try.

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I have only in the past 10 years or so, grown to appreciate bats and all they do. I learned not to fear them but to be pleased when I see one in the summer sky just above the trees.

Thank you for this, HP, and thank you for this lovely thread. It is an important part of my morning ritual to come here and ponder on the lovely words and pictures and thoughts.
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All species of bat populations have taken a bad hit in this country, due to white nose fungus, a highly contagious disease that causes them to rouse early from hibernation, fly out, and die.
Some species are rebounding, others not so much.
My heart sings when I see a bat in the night sky.
I’m rooting for the bats.
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I know the bats are struggling, and I wish them well too. I raise a tremendous crop of mosquitoes here to help them out! (Well, not on purpose, but still...)
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Forgive me, folks--I cannot bring myself to post. I had to have my beloved basset hound put down today (pericardial effusion and probable cancerous growth on his heart) and my own heart is broken into a million pieces. Ned, my avatar, is not the first dog I've lost, nor will he be the last, but it is harder losing him than any other one thus far.

He was a goofy, loud, joyous, steady hub to my world, an anchor to my fears and a comfort to my pain, and I feel as if everything is just falling to pieces without his warm heavy presence.

I held him in my arms as he passed, and I can only hope he could feel how deeply I loved him and how much I'd have given, gladly, for one more day with him, one more night to sleep next to him...

Farewell, my dearest, dearest friend--there HAS to be a place where we will meet again. It would be too cruel to imagine I'll never be with you again.
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He knew how deeply you loved him, HP - I feel certain of it. Prayers for you to be comforted, going up. RIP dear Ned - I've always loved his picture.
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Heartfelt condolences, honeypig, and some tears of my own.
Deepest commiserations.
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Oh HP, I'm so very sorry to hear about your Ned.

Sending your healing prayers.

RIP Ned
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RIP, dear Ned.

He knew you loved him and you were both lucky to have found each other.

I believe there are animals in heaven. There has to be.

Many hugs, honeypig. We'll leave a light on.
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I am so sorry, HP.
I believe that we humans are here to live a long time so that we can love many, many cats and dogs.
But it is always hard to lose them.
Peace and prayers.
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Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers. Ned really was my savior in so many ways, and I am forever indebted to him. I don't know if I would have had the courage to leave XAH and move into my own recovery w/o Ned's steady, constant and true love. I never had to wonder if he was telling the truth; dogs don't lie.

My Demon Terrier and I curled up last night, but it wasn't warm enough in bed w/o that heat-radiating basset there. We'll soldier on and eventually be OK, but for now, it hurts so badly. It does help to know we're in your thoughts and prayers, and it is much appreciated.
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Oh, HP, my tears join yours this morning. I think we all loved to hear you speak of Ned and he became part of our family too.

When I lost my beloved Toby, I thought I would never stop crying, I grieved more over that cat than I have some humans because, like your Ned, my Toby had comforted me through my darkest days and owned my heart completely. He saved my life when I fell asleep while cooking dinner and smoke was filling the room, tapping my face with his paw until I woke up.

I think that if God made one mistake it was that our beloved pets don't live long enough....but is there even a "long enough"?

We keep the love they brought us, we keep the sweet memories forever, and when all is said and done, the joy and love and peace they bring us is worth every bit of the pain we feel when we lose them.

I believe we will meet them again, and I believe that my Toby will somehow find your Ned and welcome him to that special place where they wait.
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Rest in peace, dear Ned.

A BRIDGE CALLED LOVE

It takes us back to brighter years,
to happier sunlit days
and to precious moments
that will be with us always.

And these fond recollections
are treasured in the heart
to bring us always close to those
from whom we had to part.

There is a bridge of memories
from Earth to Heaven above…
It keeps our dear ones near us
It’s the bridge that we call love.

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Beautiful thoughts - very helpful, Ann.
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In sorting through my feelings today, I realized that in addition to the sadness, loneliness, guilt and pain I feel, I also feel fear--a healthy dose of fear.

How strange, I thought. And then I realized just how much I'd come to depend on Ned for comfort and stability. This is almost the hardest thing to deal with. I am exhausted but am afraid to go to bed b/c what if I wake up in a panic attack, as I used to years ago, and I don't have Ned to cuddle up to? What will I do? How will I ground myself and get calmed down?

I miss his presence. My house feels cold and empty w/o him here. But almost overwhelmingly, I am AFRAID. Yes, my other dog is here, but she is a terrier mix and has a very different personality. She is not the "presence" that my Neddy was. I am trying my best to be present for her, to show her that I love her even though it seems the ground is slipping from under my feet.

I thought I'd learned something about how to take care of myself, comfort myself, calm myself. And I am learning that what I did was to put it all on a basset hound named Ned, and now I feel just as raw and terrified as I did on my first day after XAH moved out.
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Aw, hp.

I don't process death very well, either. I think I've just had too much of it and I've kind of reached my limit.

You're on Day One, be kind to yourself. It surely is one of the more difficult things in life with which to deal, so just take it a minute at a time. Maybe take a drive if you have a car or a walk if the weather is okay. We know Nature heals everything.

I have this coming up soon myself, not looking forward to it - but I've lost many animals over the years. Luckily I worked in a shelter and I know there are hundreds of other animals out there looking for a forever home so if I get too triggered I'll get another one; no matter how bad an idea that may be

An SR acquaintance recently had to put her dog down and she went right out and got another one of the same breed - a puppy of a very active breed - and this friend is nearing 60. Then she has been saying ever since, "Why! What was I thinking?"

No easy answers, friend. Day Two will be a tiny bit better. So sorry.
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(((HP)))

You are sad and vulnerable right now, and being afraid is all part of it, I think. The pain of mourning takes time, it cannot be hurried no matter how much it hurts.

What helps me at times like this is to alot myself time to mourn (or be angry or be sad or whatever I feel) and just not hang out there too long at one time.

You love nature, as I do, and when you feel up to actually going outdoors, maybe take pause by a lake or a meadow and talk to Ned, tell him how you feel. Have a cry but then pause and feel the breeze and listen for the birds and somehow Ned will whisper back that he is at peace and he'd like you to be too.

Just my thoughts, I wish I could offer some comfort and help you through this. As I found with my Toby, it just takes time and healing and it takes a lot longer than we think.

We are here for you, holding the candle and remembering Ned with you.
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