Class of December 2019 part 5
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Good morning. Day 52. Don't know where it came from, but got hit with a wave of thoughts about drinking this morning. They didn't even wait until 5pm 
Decided to go ahead and post, hoping it would go away. Can't really think of any reason for them. Oh well, I guess this will pass.
Decided to go ahead and post, hoping it would go away. Can't really think of any reason for them. Oh well, I guess this will pass.
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Thoughts are automatic, but we don't have to pay attention to them.
We get to listen to the ones that serve us well.
You know, like when there is half a fabulous birthday cake left in the fridge and the thought flashes.....ooooo, I can have cake for breakfast..... (he he)......mostly, grown-ups who have that thought will say to themselves.....oh no you cannot....and grab the yogurt and berries.
The first step is to say NO. Sorry idea in my head, just NO.
Then it's about doing things today that give you positive reinforcement and make you feel good. Distractions, but productive ones perhaps.
Every time we tell that thought, that voice to GO TAKE A FLYING LEAP, we get better at it. And then the next time the idea pops into our head that hey, a drink is a terrific idea, we are better equipped to deal with it.
Just my thoughts. ❤️
PS....I never worried or wondered WHY the thoughts/cravings suddenly hit me out of nowhere. They just did. So I built tools to smash them.
We get to listen to the ones that serve us well.
You know, like when there is half a fabulous birthday cake left in the fridge and the thought flashes.....ooooo, I can have cake for breakfast..... (he he)......mostly, grown-ups who have that thought will say to themselves.....oh no you cannot....and grab the yogurt and berries.
The first step is to say NO. Sorry idea in my head, just NO.
Then it's about doing things today that give you positive reinforcement and make you feel good. Distractions, but productive ones perhaps.
Every time we tell that thought, that voice to GO TAKE A FLYING LEAP, we get better at it. And then the next time the idea pops into our head that hey, a drink is a terrific idea, we are better equipped to deal with it.
Just my thoughts.
❤️PS....I never worried or wondered WHY the thoughts/cravings suddenly hit me out of nowhere. They just did. So I built tools to smash them.
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Hi Venus, hi bob,
Bloody random thoughts! So accustomed to 'doing it' bob new pathways not well enough established to prevent what has become all too natural. We are building new neural pathways, and each time we resist the path grows wider, and easier to travel. New infrastructure from the ground up. Man, I think I'm building an entire city-state. Hard work sometimes, but we are good labourers.
It will pass bob, and next day you'll know why, and be glad. Everyone know this stuff, but needed it for myself.
Going into the city today with my daughter. My mood is beginning to lift, thank goodness. I've had flashes of anger, too. Neighbour called me from the garden, and said she'd "like to have a little chat." Felt like screaming, "I don't chat, I TALK!" Nearly lost the neighbourhood.
. I think I've repressed anger all of my life, and it's emerging. Learning to deal with it constructively. I hope.
Got some of the crap out yesterday making room for my desk. More tomorrow. It'll be good.
Have a great day, night, everyone. And for the record I'm 68 days sober. Keeping those records safe.
Bloody random thoughts! So accustomed to 'doing it' bob new pathways not well enough established to prevent what has become all too natural. We are building new neural pathways, and each time we resist the path grows wider, and easier to travel. New infrastructure from the ground up. Man, I think I'm building an entire city-state. Hard work sometimes, but we are good labourers.
It will pass bob, and next day you'll know why, and be glad. Everyone know this stuff, but needed it for myself.
Going into the city today with my daughter. My mood is beginning to lift, thank goodness. I've had flashes of anger, too. Neighbour called me from the garden, and said she'd "like to have a little chat." Felt like screaming, "I don't chat, I TALK!" Nearly lost the neighbourhood.
. I think I've repressed anger all of my life, and it's emerging. Learning to deal with it constructively. I hope. Got some of the crap out yesterday making room for my desk. More tomorrow. It'll be good.
Have a great day, night, everyone. And for the record I'm 68 days sober. Keeping those records safe.
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Good morning. Day 53. I am so glad yesterday is over. The thoughts of drinking in the morning turned into things seemingly going wrong the rest of the day. By the end of the day, I couldn't wait to go to bed. I thought things had been progressing along a little too easy. Guess I had to pay some dues yesterday.
New day. Hopefully better day. Besides the other work that I want to get done, I think I'll work on an avatar for my name here. What lofty goals
New day. Hopefully better day. Besides the other work that I want to get done, I think I'll work on an avatar for my name here. What lofty goals
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But you did it Bob....
I bet you feel good this morning. 
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What style of desk are you getting Steely love....I adore the industrial style of furniture....I have some in my loungroom but the desks ended up being plain black wood due to them looking good in our office...plus the expense of two of the desks I really love was like
One thing I have discovered is that it is absolutly not more expensive to live in Melbourne than it is here....other way around. Rent is astronomical. My sister choked on her cup of tea when I told her.
Awesome on 69 days and 53 days!! ❤️❤️
And hi Dee....hope you had a great Saturday, and have a wonderful Sunday. ❤️
I bet you feel good this morning.
❤️What style of desk are you getting Steely love....I adore the industrial style of furniture....I have some in my loungroom but the desks ended up being plain black wood due to them looking good in our office...plus the expense of two of the desks I really love was like
One thing I have discovered is that it is absolutly not more expensive to live in Melbourne than it is here....other way around. Rent is astronomical. My sister choked on her cup of tea when I told her.
Awesome on 69 days and 53 days!!
❤️❤️And hi Dee....hope you had a great Saturday, and have a wonderful Sunday.
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I looked it up just before....where I live in Columbus OH is he highest rent in the city. Of course. Cos I am that skilled. 
I chose this place after Nick proposed to me and I was all like how do I leave magnificent Australia? So I found the most beautiful spot here. And it is gorgeous....now that it is about to get warmer and I am more settled, I will take lots of pics to share with you all. Basically, I was looking for the 'Elwood' of Columbus....and I found it. It is a privilege to live here, but the expense is getting insane. My landlady just listed the other half of our house (that is a lot smaller....more like 1/3) for way more than our rent.
I chose this place after Nick proposed to me and I was all like how do I leave magnificent Australia? So I found the most beautiful spot here. And it is gorgeous....now that it is about to get warmer and I am more settled, I will take lots of pics to share with you all. Basically, I was looking for the 'Elwood' of Columbus....and I found it. It is a privilege to live here, but the expense is getting insane. My landlady just listed the other half of our house (that is a lot smaller....more like 1/3) for way more than our rent.
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