Class of March 2016 part 73
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Damn, Lillian. What a day. I'm with Suze, that sounded like a bottle of wine experience. Your courage is amazing. And of course, you're okay. Hugs to you. Glad you are posting here. Those forums do seem a bit scary.
Have a great day, sober people!
Have a great day, sober people!
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
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October 27th is a popular day. It’s Venus’ sober day, Scott Weiland’s birthday and my birthday. I’ll give the day to Suze. Four years is a milestone!
Thank you for the kind thoughts, prayers and gentle hugs. Today was a much better day.
Hope everyone has a blessed day tomorrow. I’m off to count some sheep.
Thank you for the kind thoughts, prayers and gentle hugs. Today was a much better day.
Hope everyone has a blessed day tomorrow. I’m off to count some sheep.
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This time last week- the paintng class saw me have a near shutdown. The necessity to keep focused, while battling anxiety and migraine aura was hard. But I did it. Today was waaaaaa(aaaa)y better. No freaking (mind the lecturer did not think I was freaking- must hide it well) - we had to paint 3 randomly chosen scenes from just around the studio- a bag, a chair with stuff- corners, whatever.
Although my stuff is no Renoir, it ais better than last week. I explained to the lecturer that with the anxiety, I tense up- that causes spasms- then pain- and inevitably flashbacks of burns and pain....
The thing is- it takes 20 minutes to set up, 20 to pack up- and 60 to clean up at home. Imagine every surface oil paint touches is like radioactivity. We have to use low toxic solvent (not turps at school- fumes) which is crap for cleaning. I even have separate pegs for hanging washed rags with- so as not to contaminate everything.
Started on an inkwash drawing for drawing- painstaking- layering tones- again and again so the darkest areas get done last. Also cleaned up the plaster around the back yard from sculpture...so much neuroplasticity stuff here- what brush to use when, how to dispose of solvents, not to mention the actual mixing of colours.
It struck me today- here I am creating stuff- rather than destroying it with booze.
Not a cold day in hell would I have been able to do this stuff if drinking. It is very important to me to do this right, and to the best of my ability (without being stupid).
We have to cast half a chess set for sculpture- to prove we understand different techniques in making moulds and casting. It has to have a theme. I am thinking hands (I wonder why).
Although my stuff is no Renoir, it ais better than last week. I explained to the lecturer that with the anxiety, I tense up- that causes spasms- then pain- and inevitably flashbacks of burns and pain....
The thing is- it takes 20 minutes to set up, 20 to pack up- and 60 to clean up at home. Imagine every surface oil paint touches is like radioactivity. We have to use low toxic solvent (not turps at school- fumes) which is crap for cleaning. I even have separate pegs for hanging washed rags with- so as not to contaminate everything.
Started on an inkwash drawing for drawing- painstaking- layering tones- again and again so the darkest areas get done last. Also cleaned up the plaster around the back yard from sculpture...so much neuroplasticity stuff here- what brush to use when, how to dispose of solvents, not to mention the actual mixing of colours.
It struck me today- here I am creating stuff- rather than destroying it with booze.
Not a cold day in hell would I have been able to do this stuff if drinking. It is very important to me to do this right, and to the best of my ability (without being stupid).
We have to cast half a chess set for sculpture- to prove we understand different techniques in making moulds and casting. It has to have a theme. I am thinking hands (I wonder why).
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Originally Posted by Purplrks3647 
Miss Venuscat many congrats on your upcoming 4 year soberversary....that will be the 27th? If so, you share a special day with Scott Weiland....Oct 27 would have been his 51st birthday 
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Originally Posted by LillianGish
October 27th is a popular day. It’s Venus’ sober day, Scott Weiland’s birthday and my birthday. I’ll give the day to Suze. Four years is a milestone!
Thank you for the kind thoughts, prayers and gentle hugs. Today was a much better day.
Hope everyone has a blessed day tomorrow. I’m off to count some sheep.
Thank you for the kind thoughts, prayers and gentle hugs. Today was a much better day.
Hope everyone has a blessed day tomorrow. I’m off to count some sheep.
Love you guys.....freezing.....no furnace.....need more coffee. xx
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Interesting idea PJ love....can't quite imagine how the pieces could work....pawns and such....unless you make them all fingers.....hmmm......that could be a mixed message. 
Looking forward to seeing how this project unfolds. ♥
Looking forward to seeing how this project unfolds.
♥
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October 27 is a big day for us!!
PHX - your chess set sounds cool. Glad you didn't have a break down. Funny that we think we are melting down and other people don't even notice. Or sad.
Suze - hope you get warm soon. I think I'd stay under the blanket with coffee and a book and pajamas. All wishful thinking of course.
Peppermint tea sounds pretty awesome Purple. I have Chai right now. It's pretty awesome too.
Lillian - praying for the best results. And faster.
Dee - I'm digging that avatar.
MITA - Have an awesome day!
Hey, BBG!
All is well in my world. Have an awesome day, friends!
PHX - your chess set sounds cool. Glad you didn't have a break down. Funny that we think we are melting down and other people don't even notice. Or sad.
Suze - hope you get warm soon. I think I'd stay under the blanket with coffee and a book and pajamas. All wishful thinking of course.
Peppermint tea sounds pretty awesome Purple. I have Chai right now. It's pretty awesome too.
Lillian - praying for the best results. And faster.
Dee - I'm digging that avatar.
MITA - Have an awesome day!
Hey, BBG!
All is well in my world. Have an awesome day, friends!
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Hello class 
Like Bobbie said: "Lillian - praying for the best results. And faster."
Oct 27 what a great date! Suze if you're familiar with the rock bands Stone Temple Pilots and/or Velvet Revolver, Scott Weiland was the sensational front man for both.....such a great songwriter, singer, and what a stage presence!
He had a well known substance addiction, so when he passed three years ago it was no surprise.... but he was still one of my favorites.....I sobbed like a bitch when I heard the news 
Day 8 here I think....one of the umpteen "Halloween" movies just started....I'll leave it on as long as it's not that awful Rob Zombie remake.
Like Bobbie said: "Lillian - praying for the best results. And faster."
Oct 27 what a great date! Suze if you're familiar with the rock bands Stone Temple Pilots and/or Velvet Revolver, Scott Weiland was the sensational front man for both.....such a great songwriter, singer, and what a stage presence!
He had a well known substance addiction, so when he passed three years ago it was no surprise.... but he was still one of my favorites.....I sobbed like a bitch when I heard the news Day 8 here I think....one of the umpteen "Halloween" movies just started....I'll leave it on as long as it's not that awful Rob Zombie remake.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Prayers and best wishes for good results Lillian
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka
Lillian - praying for the best results. And faster.
bbg, you've been quiet lately. Everything OK?
Thank you all for being here and support to all who need it.
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ
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It struck me today- here I am creating stuff- rather than destroying it with booze.
Not a cold day in hell would I have been able to do this stuff if drinking. It is very important to me to do this right, and to the best of my ability (without being stupid).
It struck me today- here I am creating stuff- rather than destroying it with booze.
Not a cold day in hell would I have been able to do this stuff if drinking. It is very important to me to do this right, and to the best of my ability (without being stupid).
Well done mate. Good on you.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
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Time for cancer bingo. Results of both painfully awful biopsies came in late this afternoon:
B-9. The masses were benign. BINGO!
So relieved!
One out of four suspicious spots turned out malignant after one solid month of testing. This has been a long month.
And now I’m praying to the god of lymph nodes that those turn out clear too.
Meeting with surgeon on Tuesday to decide surgical plan. Chemo decision comes after surgery and lymph node biopsies.
Big decisions....which I’m so glad I’m making sober! Two months sober today. Very thankful for that and for you all.
Ok checking out with a smile. I caught a little break today.
Nite friends!
B-9. The masses were benign. BINGO!
So relieved!
One out of four suspicious spots turned out malignant after one solid month of testing. This has been a long month.
And now I’m praying to the god of lymph nodes that those turn out clear too.
Meeting with surgeon on Tuesday to decide surgical plan. Chemo decision comes after surgery and lymph node biopsies.
Big decisions....which I’m so glad I’m making sober! Two months sober today. Very thankful for that and for you all.
Ok checking out with a smile. I caught a little break today.
Nite friends!
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