Anxiety and regret
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My "rock bottom" moment was when I decided to drive blacked out.. didn't even make it down the street without running into a curb and totally f****** up the rim and tire on my car. I'd always been careful to not drive "too" drunk and have never had any similar incidents or DUIS. Luckily nothing worse happened but it was still a major wake up call. At that point I realized this really was only going to get worse and could destroy much more than my personal life.. I was no longer in control and there was no way of hiding it.
All the rims on my tires were removed and my car looks like sh*t because of it. But I still have not replaced them because I actually do need that visual reminder.. Sometimes that's really what it takes. So just hang in there and use this as a catalyst for real change.
All the rims on my tires were removed and my car looks like sh*t because of it. But I still have not replaced them because I actually do need that visual reminder.. Sometimes that's really what it takes. So just hang in there and use this as a catalyst for real change.
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Too funny, Mac4711! I wanted to share that yesterday but then I was like, "oh, they won't care." lol! Well, my nose still hurts, but the bruising is now light yellowish and the swelling is wayyyy down. On Monday later in the day I was lucky to be able to walk-in to a private Dr. office down the street and saw a NP there. He sent me to get an X-Ray of my nose at one of those big X-Ray/MRI places that same day. Anyway, he called me with the results on Thursday. I have a "non-displaced fracture of distal nasal bone," and he wants me to follow up with a specialist. So, I'm just trying to be gentle and not touch it too much so it definitely heals. I'm on day 6 of being sober today (yippee!) and really trying to be mindful of my thoughts/see my triggers when they pop up and really deal with them. I still want to go to a meeting, and plan to do that soon. Very soon. So thank you for following up and giving me a good laugh on this Saturday! 
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Also, I want to just say thank you to everyone who has responded to my thread. It's been soooooo incredibly relieving to find out that all this time, I wasn't the only person going through this. And your advice is literally like the best and most on point information that is really helping me through. You all are awesome people and thank you so so soooo much! It's great to have SR to go to- really has helped me on nights when I just need a place to reach out to. So, thank you all.
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Congrats on your sobriety and new found happiness! I too have had my share of drunken mishaps and injuries, one of which I ended up quitting my last job over. I was already falling apart and calling in sick a lot, but the night before the day that I was actually planning on showing up again, I somehow accidentally sliced my palm on a random tool I had been using to scrape paint days earlier. I woke up in pain with blood all over my bed in the middle of the night and realized suddenly that I wasn’t going to work...again. In fact, I wasn’t going back to that job at all. 
Not a proud moment at all for me. But it was a much needed change and wake-up call. It took one more smaller stumble and my life is right where I need to be now. A much better job. Sobriety. Fading anxiety and regret. Hope for the future.
Best wishes to you!
Not a proud moment at all for me. But it was a much needed change and wake-up call. It took one more smaller stumble and my life is right where I need to be now. A much better job. Sobriety. Fading anxiety and regret. Hope for the future.
Best wishes to you!
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Very cool.
I found a lot of acceptance, understanding, and people who'd been thru the same things I had (and worse) who could talk about it and laugh in the rooms of AA. At the time I didn't even want to acknowledge some of those things to myself, let alone talk openly to a group of people and admit them. Laughing about them? Could never see that in my future.
Now I can, but it takes time.
I found a lot of acceptance, understanding, and people who'd been thru the same things I had (and worse) who could talk about it and laugh in the rooms of AA. At the time I didn't even want to acknowledge some of those things to myself, let alone talk openly to a group of people and admit them. Laughing about them? Could never see that in my future.
Now I can, but it takes time.
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Originally Posted by sunshinelove101 
Too funny, Mac4711! I wanted to share that yesterday but then I was like, "oh, they won't care." lol! Well, my nose still hurts, but the bruising is now light yellowish and the swelling is wayyyy down. On Monday later in the day I was lucky to be able to walk-in to a private Dr. office down the street and saw a NP there. He sent me to get an X-Ray of my nose at one of those big X-Ray/MRI places that same day. Anyway, he called me with the results on Thursday. I have a "non-displaced fracture of distal nasal bone," and he wants me to follow up with a specialist. So, I'm just trying to be gentle and not touch it too much so it definitely heals. I'm on day 6 of being sober today (yippee!) and really trying to be mindful of my thoughts/see my triggers when they pop up and really deal with them. I still want to go to a meeting, and plan to do that soon. Very soon. So thank you for following up and giving me a good laugh on this Saturday!
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